A Course in Miracles teaches us that as long as you are afraid of your will, you are asking for what you do not want. You do not ask for what you want, because you are afraid you might receive it. But know that your will is your salvation because your will is the same as the Universe's.
Follow that joy. Follow your will. Those around you may not understand. That is okay. In fact, it is to be expected. Your passion and desire may evolve as you follow the path and fine tune your focus. But I promise you this: your will strengthens through this process. This is your power: a strong will, a passionate heart and a unified, focused mind.