Have You Ever Wondered If You're An Indigo?

You may or may not have heard of this term: Indigo. It refers to specific type of light worker, or healing frequency, needed at this time in the Earth's evolution. I remember being in elementary school when I went to the book store with my mother. I glanced over a book on display and immediately felt drawn to it. As we walked through to another section, I tugged on her arm and curiously asked, "Mom, what is that book? What is an Indigo child?" She said, "Oh I don't know honey, I think they are those trouble maker kids. I think they have some problems."

I distinctly remember being disappointed with her response. I remember where I was standing in that store, and how I felt. 

I laugh, now. Because in a way, she was right. Indigos certainly do have problems: problems to fix on Earth, that is.  

Indigos got a bad wrap in the 80s only because we really didn't understand them.
Truth be told...

Indigos are warrior spirits who wear the color in their auric field. Their collective incarnation serves to break down corrupt systems in place and pave way for the future.

No biggie...

They've got a big job to do! And so they were born with a soul mission that drives them forward, and powerfully. 

Eh, well... they are usually a lil' bit intense, but it parallels their power. If the realms of the light beings had a rebel group (which they do)-- this would be it (which it is).

First wave indigos were born in the late 60s and 70s. 2nd wave indigos, in the 80s. There were some 3rd wave stragglers in the 90's, but the new breeds of light workers are often crystal and rainbow healers: a gentler breed lacking the scrappy, willful, powerhouse nature of the indigo soul.


Indigos were built to never back down.

And so they can be stubborn, relentless, and have a tendency to walk the the fine line of bravery and stupidity (not that I would know anything about that).

Now, this is a powerful weapon, if one is able to point the cannon in the right direction. Indigos are living, breathing, powerhouses who have a strong will and determination unmatched by other light worker realms.

The hard work is in alchemizing the shadow self highlighted through tough life circumstances, as it is a common story for the indigo to traverse difficult times as part of their Earth school curriculum. 

They must know and master darkness just as much as light, because they have to understand the enemy and what they are breaking down.

Light warriors have transcended the shadow, and can walk through darkness in neutrality. Usually indigos have had "darkness training" in a few life chapters. Their reward for this transcendence, is access to immense wisdom and light, heightened psychic ability, self knowledge, and inner peace, and straight up caliber.

They do not like rules, systems, rigidity, or being told what to do.

They are highly psychic, fast pasted, energetic, and often labeled ADD or ADHD for their ability to  see many trajectories at one time. I prefer to call this kaleidoscope thinking. They are visionaries. 

They are born with a "mission" and have a soul knowing from birth that they are different, and there is some "epic-ness" to meet. This can be confusing without context or understanding. If they don't know what their mission is, or that they have one in the first place, everything feels wrong. Where does that power go? What is it for? If unaware of who they are and why they are here, they can feel lost and become destructive.

Good Lord! An out of balance indigo on a destructive path is a fucking nightmare.

They often have addict energy, that tick, and have to work with this archetypal frequency, though that is not always the rule.

As tough and intense as they seem, they are just as sensitive, highly artistic, enthusiastic and empathetic. They genuinely want to serve others, fight the good fight, and change the world. These people must have meaning in their daily lives. They enjoy a hard days work and feeling accomplished from it. The ability to see ahead of the game, work faster, and with the energy and stamina to make things happen--indigos are primed to empower this moment in history. They're hustlers. 

They can have a tendency toward self loathing as they often don't feel they fit in, are pained by the state of affairs in the world, or have a history of misplaced energy.

A combination of nutrition, meditation, intense physical exercise where they can unleash this energy, is necessary. Also a mindful movement practice such as yoga or tai chi can be extremely helpful.

These are some highly sensitive people. They really need to stay away from environmental toxins and chemicals in in good. 

They know when you are full of shit as they have a natural, internal lie detector.

The best advice I can give, is to trust this lie detector. 

Often times they are activists as they cannot stand injustice and enjoy fighting for the underdog! 

About now, most indigos are grown ups. We are in charge. This adds to the rebellion and backlash against corruption in politics and the media.

If you feel you may be an indigo, honor your instincts, fine tune your mission, care for your body and health, and seek activities and friends that support your positivity and personal power. All that energy, drive, history and desire is there for a reason. I promise you that. 

You are so needed, right now!

Check out Warrior Of The Light by Paulo Coelho or The Art of War, by Sun Tzu. 

Visionaries Unite. 


P.S. I am a hybrid light worker of several realms. Yes I am an indigo, but in combination with other frequencies. This helps me to understand many type of light beings! 

Q&A: Is It Fear Or Intuition?

Hello Kalisa, 
As a working mom with a recent... and pretty inconvenient spiritual awakening, I come up against a lot of resistance when it comes to making decisions that I believe will guide me towards my true self and purpose (writing that makes me feel embarrassed). I never shied away from taking heart-based risks in the past, but as my responsibilities grow (I'm married and have a 6yr old daughter) and I get older, I find myself not being able to tell the difference between fear and intuition; if it is fear telling me "no, don't do it" or my intuition's wisdom. 
Sorry... my point is, is that sometimes it feels like wishful thinking. Did you ever feel that way?
Thanks for being so real and so magical at the same time! 


Dear E.,
I am writing this on a Monday, the day after a tear-torn, inward-melting into myself on a Sunday evening, deeply questioning the tight rope walk of single parenting and empowerment pioneering through crystal bed therapy and the craft that I put out to the world. When do we draw the line between what is right for us as women, and what is right for our families as mothers? What does it mean for our children or families when we take soul-powered risks changing the course of the stream? Inherent in the soul lesson of motherhood, is sacrifice. There is great spiritual initiation that comes from loss of freedom, the shattering of layers of ego as you allow the “you” that you’ve known, to die in full service to this beautiful, newly Earth-bound soul in your care and stewardship. We must lead by example, indeed. And every mother should choose for herself what that tightrope walk looks like. There is no right or wrong here. 
I will tell you one thing that I do believe: when you make decisions conducive to spiritual purity, that also allow your soul creativity, expansion, and a sense of self-honoring empowerment, everybody wins. Your children learn how to give to themselves and your romantic partner understands through your behavior that you are, most definitely, a Queen, who loves and trust herself. You build  up that magnetic energy within. Others will ride with you, or they may fall off as you evolve. But when you choose conscious evolution, I promise you that from a higher perspective--no one loses; no matter what it looks like on Earth (conflict or ease). I chose your question for this particular column, because as women and especially as mothers, the belief in magic and the gusto to make intentional decisions that lead us to our highest alignment is so very, deeply important; and, arguably layered with more consequence as someone who’s decision making affects not just one self, but children who will one day be leaders of society. Your children watch your every move, mirroring your every breath. They will not do what you say, but take on the patterns of your belief systems and actions, whether you like it or not. And it is such a common belief that when you marry and have kids, the magic dies. And that is a load of crap. There are responsibilities, obligations, mortgages and deliverables, but the magic is there. It just looks a little bit different. It's all about perspective. 
When I personally come upon “a lot of resistance when it comes to making decisions that I believe will guide me towards my true self and purpose,” I consider how I would want my daughter to tender her soul, as a grown woman. And that very thought, fires me forward. It helps me break through resistance and get straight through to truth. I think, if Helena was in this situation or that situation, what would I tell her to do?
And fuck no, I do not believe your sentiments are wishful! In fact, what is "wishful thinking" but the first step in manifestation? Our actions and decisions as mothers are laying the blueprint for our children’s very vibration. Their vibrations dictate the future of this world. Do I get insecure, frightened, overwhelmed, wondering if I am worthy of these dreams and visions I have? Absolutely. Do I question my choices? Of course I do. Do I think that some of the things I know I would like to do for myself, are akin to wishful thinking? Yes, it is. But I still wish it. I still think it. And any vision, idea, or feeling that stays with me for weeks, for months, is more than an impulse. These are real, valid, know-ings. I use discernment, and my rational mind in combination with my strong intuition and visions. Balance, dear heart! I am often just as strategic and discerning as I am emotional and intuitive.
Three years ago I had a rewarding job in a wonderful community that I loved. I didn’t make much money, but I worked hard and was treated well. I moved back home after a nasty break up with baby daddy and a lot of upheaval to save money and get grounded. I enjoyed working in fitness, but I wanted more.  I worked full time as an instructor/trainer during the day, healed part time on the side, while I was completing trainings and studies, and was creating a side e-commerce brand at night, after my daughter went to sleep. Towards the end of my time period at this job, I kept having impulses telling me it was time to go, despite loving what I do and the people I worked with. My side healing-hustle was becoming very powerful and I noticed that what was happening with my clients was, well, beyond me. It was extraordinary. Every time I was on the mic sweating and coaching, as much as it was fun, my gut was telling me that something was off. I didn’t make any decisions for a good 6 weeks to see if this feeling would fade or grow stronger. It only grew stronger. My heartbeat felt a deep call to go back to New York (I moved there when I was 17 and my kiddo was born there). Deep in meditation, I would ask spirit to show me a vision of a map. I looked at New York City and it would light up in fireworks. I asked about some other cities and none of them had as much energy or light as NYC. I tested this in meditation over and over. LA? Colorado? I saw a crystal over NYC. I saw visions of Helena and I in Brooklyn. The message was very clear.

I consulted mentors. I went over cash flow. I looked at my little girl and thought, “How in the world am I to do this with her? You want me to quit my job, with very little savings, pack up my car and drive across the country to become some crystal witch in New York City when no one has even heard of this work and I have no network there, or safety net, medical insurance, or a back up job lined up… that’s what you want me to do? Right now? Just mother-fucking wing it?“
“Yes,” Spirit said.
The idea both terrified and thrilled me. No one did what I do, up there. I saw John of God beds, but I didn’t see any indication that the operators of what few beds there were, had the training or skill set that I did. They didn’t have my bed model, my crystal sound bowls, or my swagger (wink wink). I did not have enough money to last more than a few months. I guess I was just testing the waters.
But there was a pulse that I could not ignore. I just couldn’t.
Not many rational single mothers would do what I did. I know that. I couldn’t bring her with me either. I can’t explain to you the guilt, anguish and sorrow that came with leaving her in TX after some very traumatic years together. I felt selfish. I felt like a failure because I couldn’t provide enough money to have her with me. And I had no fucking clue if this was even going to work. But I thought maybe, just maybe, if I got this right, it would pay off for us both. That was my deepest hope. I found a room in someone’s wellness clinic for my crystal bed. I found a couple roomates and moved into a place in Lefferts Gardens. I prayed every day. I cried often. I lived on protein bars and cursed the mice crawling through my quarters wondering when I would get to see my daughter again. Does she know that everything I do is for her? Will she understand? Is she proud of me? Am I instilling bravery or abandonment? I couldn’t answer those questions at the time. All I could do was put one foot in front of the other and pray to God I wasn't fucking up.

But I guess that is the thing about working through resistance. It's a practice. Eventually you don't care about whether you fuck up or succeed. It's about just simply doing the most right thing in the moment.  

The final factor in deciding to move, yet again, was imagining this scenario: What if Helena was a 27 year old single mother who never got to do the things most young folks do, and had a rough time of it. What if Helena was living with me and I was the grandmother. Would I tell her to stuff her intuitive drive and just find a salary with benefits? Or would I take charge of the baby, tell her to be brave, work her ass off and follow her heart if only, for this one temporary moment?

What would you tell your 6 year old girl, if she were in your shoes now?
The answer was so clear to me. In no way, ever, as a mother, as a female, would I encourage someone to ignore the inner workings of their heart, drive and intuition. I will always tell her to take the sword and go forth. I would tell her life is so precious and short and I would rather die having tried and lost than never opening up to the possibility because of fear or resistance.
Was my crystal career just a bunch of wishful thinking? Am I going to waste what little money I have chasing some intuitive desire that doesn’t even belong to my individual personality, and yet emanates from my soul? Maybe. Maybe not. Time will tell. Even if I turn out to be a financial failure, the inherent lessons will be well worth the journey I have taken. By watching me work, take risks, and follow my heart, Helena will be brave. She will be powerful. I am not worried about her for one second. She speaks her mind. She is rational and discerning while soft and empathetic. And I know she is so deeply proud of me. The impulse to move back to the city with my work was like being driven by a force beyond my cognitive understanding. There is a part of me who knew exactly what she was doing, driving on, driving forward. And another part going, “God dammit woman you are fucking crazy! Go get a real job and some medical insurance and start saving up! Fool.” Maybe I am a fool. But I am a hard working and brave one and I am the type of person who trusts the will of my soul.

The reason I always do this, is because I know that is God’s will. God’s will knows no fear. And despite resistance, despite the ego's fear, inherent in the action step of moving forward, is trust. And trusting is so deeply brave. I will always remember that Latin proverb: Fortis Fortuna Adiuvat (fortune favors the bold). For some reason that has been a mantra of mine since I was 19.
I remember sitting in my ill lit office, an empty healing room with my crystal bed. I knew no one. I spoke to the crystals. I did meditative, vibrational spells. I prayed to every angel, master, God, deity, and spirit I could think of. I spoke to the trees and the wind. I told them I was here. I offered everything on a sliding scale. I did every ground up marketing tactic I could. I lost money. I made mistakes. I sat in deep meditation all day in my office to create the vibration in a space that would attract the right people.
And then something fucking rad happened.
Parker Posey walks in the door. She was maybe my third client. She probably doesn’t know this, but her appearance in my world helped me keep going, emotionally and logistically. Someone I looked up at artistically my whole life, came to me, for this weirdo, eccentric service. WTF? She introduced me to someone who is now a dear friend and soul sister, Alex Hayden, who sent so many people and lovingly spread the word of my work. And then influencers, business owners, dear healer friends, media outlets found out. How the hell these people came to me, I do not know. But they had influence and trusted me. The network built, and built, and built.
People would look at the photograph of my daughter in her basketball uniform on the wall of my office and say, “I didn’t know you had a child.” I would explain I was working to get her back with me. Shortly after I moved back, my dog died. She was my angel, best friend, and one good companion. I carried her in the snow to the vet clinic in full tears. And then, everything I owned in storage unit in Austin was ruined by a rat infestation. At the time, this was a very big deal. Devastating. I came with barely any clothing, thinking I would go back to Austin and get my things. I had a couple clients donate used clothing. It was so kind! People would say, “Goodness you look different every time I see you.” Yep! Because I am wearing other peoples clothes, I would think to myself. And hearing Helena’s voice in tears on the phone at night, in pain because she missed her mother, killed me.
Let go.
Let go.
Let go.

The Universe said.

Let go of everything. Money, your things, relationships of unconditional love. Let go.

And just vibrate, purely. Then, you will know the truth. Do you know who you are, without any of these things? 

I learned. Little bits of magic here or there would keep me going. I practiced gratitude like it was going out of style. Thank you for the rats! Those “things” were my past! I focused on the little bits of magic. Magic was the universe communicating to me that I was on the right track, despite resistance that came my way.  
My clients were deeply grateful. And I felt strong alignment in the work. I was able to find a job on film sets while I built myself. I continued working on the e-commerce brand, and eventually got my daughter up here. 

My point in sharing all of this, is that making intuitive, heartfelt decisions does not necessarily negate challenge or external resistance. Good Lord, saying that would be a bunch of bullshit. However, I can promise you that when you move from your heart and not from fear, the lessons inherent to the challenges are the lessons your soul craves in this Earth-school curriculum filled with contrast.
So you see, dear E, when you practice cultivating a spiritual path, not only do you honor yourself. You are part of a movement of people ushering in a new era of consciousness. You create a new vibration within yourself and it echos through your family and into the streets. When you are brave enough to move through resistance, we all win. Resistance just means there is something to work through, you know? When you foster spiritual action within the self, you are a warrior, brave and true. Usually the epic shit doesn't come easy. And I promise you that your spiritual path, is nothing short of epic. 
And here is a tip to know if it is intuition or fear: look at either physical contraction or physical expansion, when you compare two choices.
-Let’s say you have choice A and choice B.
-Go into meditation.
-Take at least 7 minutes to allow yourself a calm space.
-Then picture choice A.
-Does your body expand or contract?
-Do you feel light or heavy?
-Now do the same with choice B.
If you cannot get an answer, either you have not learned to quiet your mind enough to hear the voice of your soul, or the information simply is not in yet. Even for the best of the best, some things are meant to stay unknown.

There is deep beauty in mystery.
Let the issue go, and revisit again in one week. Then two weeks. You will notice a pattern of bodily and emotional expansion with an air of lightness, when you are on target intuitively.
Practice working with your intuition over simple things like, sushi vs fish tacos, or red blouse vs blue blouse. Practice listening to your soul through meditation and stillness. I used to meditate with a 3 year old slapping my face. Oh boy...maybe with kids, meditation looks different. I can tell you as a mother, your spiritual practice will look different. Get used to it. Finding time for a spiritual practice can be difficult, but, eh, what the fuck ever. It’s still yours. Own it. Make time where you can. Be gentle with yourself when you simply can't. It's ok. Life is yoga. It's all a practice whether a 6-year-old is throwing spaghetti at your face mimicking you saying "god dammit" while you are on a conference call for for, or whether you are in lotus pose in your meditation group. Make a contract with your body. Say, “Beautiful cells I will heed your ancient wisdom. Dear heart I am on your side! We are in this together. I hear you.”
I look in the mirror so often and tell myself I am forgiven, for all my mistakes I am forgiven and that I am worthy of my heart’s calling. I can trust myself because I trust my boundaries, wisdom and intuition. And I know my line. I promise myself I will make changes when my tightrope walk is out of balance. Sometimes I can be stubborn and strong willed, and don't realize when I am out of balance from hyper-focusing on something, or just trying to keep it together until it's too late, and I am spent. I am still working on it. I am still learning. My life isn’t still and calm. But it so deeply rich. God damn, it is rich, sister.
We cannot ask for 24/7 peace. Not unless we join the monastery, which, believe me, I have considered a thousand times. We cannot ask for 24/7 perfection, or glory, or smooth sailing. But you can 100% count on the richness of experience when you listen to the deep, conscious wisdom of your intuition and your heart.

And I promise you, oh how I tear up when I type these words, I promise you, your daughter will learn grace.
It is my hope that this letter serves you well. Thank you for writing me and trusting me with your sacred question. I believe in you.

And I know you will make decisions that cause your soul to expand.  

12 Fascinating Reasons Pyramid Energy Can Make You More Powerful

I know what you’re thinking, “Whoa, Lady, are pyramids the new crystals?” Nah, but hold on to your sage wands folks, combining their power just might put you over the edge!
It was last spring that I saw it in a vision. I understood nothing about about how the pyramid structure can energize, empower, cleanse, and uplift energy. I have never had any real experience with pyramids, other than I think they look really, really cool and I am down with Egyptian deities and energies. 

But I kept seeing a floating pyramid above the crystal bed in my meditations, and it just felt right. I am also interested in how ancient cultures historically used esoteric wisdom in their practical lives. So, I started doing my research. 5 parts from India, 7 industrial metal companies, and a couple of liability forms later… Here we are.
Do you think ancient Egyptians were just, oh I don’t know, f%cking around?

No. They were certainly not.
“Pyra” comes from the Greek word for fire. “Mid”, from the Latin “Mede”, which means middle.

So the word pyramid, literally means “fire in the middle”.
The translation is not unlike what is happening under the basic pyramid structure. It feels as if it creates a concentrated ball of life force or prana for you to use.
Pyramids don’t need to be charged, or even cleansed like crystals do.

You would think that perhaps the intensity is just too much to handle, on top of the other vibrational therapies we are working with: chromo-therapy, crystal sound bowl healing attuned to 432 hz, magnetic therapy, Vogel style crystals used to amplify and direct energy, AND a shaman-priestess-chick bossing around cosmic energy like the astral planes are her damn backyard… eh-hem ;) .
Alas, on the contrary, what I have experienced in sessions thus far is that there is an elegant finesse to the energetic integrations I am already performing. Instead of feeling raw or spacey after a session, you may feel more energized, clear, and focused. My last client had more visions (which she normally does not), recalled bits of wisdom from the past, and felt fully clear while rejuvenated after her session.
I could feel an absolute upgrade just by being the practitioner on the outskirts of the vortex. 


In fact, pyramid vibrations are life-giving. They create a force called bio-cosmic energy, meaning they channel cosmic energies & Earth’s electromagnetic energies like an integrative antenna, in essence becoming it’s own powerful and protective magnetic field.

Those powerful vibes are normally focused directly underneath the structure, but are also emitted from the 5 points.
The first day it was put up, I just didn’t want to leave. I kept testing it’s efficacy. I would close my eyes and walk from underneath it, to the chair, and back again to see what I could feel and experience. I had a rough week that week, and the best way that I can explain it’s affect on me that very first day, is that:

The pyramid made me feel safe and protected as if I was basking in the harmony of heaven and Earth’s union.

I didn’t even turn on the bed and give myself a session.
I just laid there.
I just felt.

I communed with Spirit.
I didn’t want to go home.

In fact, I am going to make another one to put over my bed. 

I believe in them so much, I will make smaller ones to charge my food before I eat, and my crystal before I meditate. 

You can even charge and structure water before you drink it!

Why not charge yourself up?!?!

The thing is, pyramids are modeled after the carbon atom, which is one of life’s basic structures of creation. It is a tetrahedron; a platonic solid. 

And when any pyramid form is aligned with true north (which it is in my office--we moved some things around), it’s like someone flipped the power switch, activating it’s magic.

But, What Exactly Is That Magic?


1. Converts negative ions to positive ions.
2. Protects human energy fields from harmful, manmade emf, radio waves, and negative vibrations.
3. Amplifies energy.
4. Powerful Tool for Manifestation.
5. Attracts positive etheric energy.
6. Balances energy around the endocrine glands.
7. Rejuvenating.
8. Boosts Immune System.
9. Balances Circadian Rhythms for enhanced sleeping patterns.
10. Decreases stress.
11. Balances Chakras.
12. Aids mental clarity and focus.

To be honest, it does a lot more. It does more than what I want to describe in a newsletter and would involve a hell of a lot more science. I encourage you to study pyramid energy on your own time. I can't wait to delve even deeper!

Suffice it to say, there is not another crystal bed therapy practitioner on the east coast who does what I do specifically, that I know of. Moreover, there is not another crystal bed therapist, who does specifically what I do, with a floating pyramid over their installation, at all, that I know of. 

This is a special installation of energy vortices and vibrational therapies unique to my practice here in New York City. It is my gift and offering. 

The best way to get an idea of the vibes I am talking about, is to come and try it for yourself. 

Let's get you to your next level, together. 

Book your next full Crystal Bed Session, Crystal Bed Express, Remote Energy Session (for those of you outside of NYC), or a session for your child by clicking this link:






The purpose of a goal is not to achieve it, but who you become to achieve it.
— Tony Robbins

This week I am overwhelmed. Last week I was overwhelmed. Despite trimming the fat, self care regiments, supplements, a strict diet, spiritual ritual, and regular crystal bed sessions, life coaching, and acupuncture. Despite incredible friends. Despite a loving and supportive family.  Despite enriching and meaningful work with depth, creativity, and expansion.Yesterday was in a negotiation battle with my developer who was using very condescending language and blaming any issue I had on me (bye Felicia), I am redo-ing both websites, installing a giant copper pyramid above the crystal bed, trying to hire a personal assistant, planning out of town events, preparing to take my kiddo away for vacation, preparing marketing plans, creating yearly budgets & my to do list haunts me. I am at peace with it. At times, everything can become overwhelming. Every day I fold into myself, opening space for more neutrality and expansion. But how do we know how powerful we really are, unless we experience these moments that test our endurance?

Today my computer is crashing. I couldn’t’ sleep last night. This morning I was tired and rushed. I dropped my glass coffee pot, sliced my hand in two places and the there was blood mixed with shattered glass everywhere, of course on a day I have to do manual labor with the office installation. The Late nights & Single-mama-ing. After I got Helena to school late, I was sitting on the floor cleaning up glass and blood, rushing before a call with a PR person.

I looked around, and just said FUCK.

Then my sister texted me a quote. “The purpose of a goal is not to achieve it, but who you become to achieve it.”

I remember saying to myself years ago, I want to be the type of person who can bring this type of healing to New York. I want to be the type of person who can live my dreams, contribute, and be a present mother. I want to be the type of person who can see an idea and make it come to life. I don’t care if I am successful or not. I want to create, bring things to life. I want to be the person who does not limit herself because of circumstance, lack of money, lack of resources or support. Contributing to the evolution of humanitarian consciousness is non-negotiable. My health is non-negotiable. My creative expansion is non-negotiable. My autonomy as an entrepreneur, is non-negotiable. Being present as a mom and a strong role model, is non-negotiable. Tall order. But I am a tall woman. Things may be a mess. There may be broken glass, blood, fights, and frustrations. It may take longer than I thought. But when I read that quote I remembered the point: becoming.

I became the woman I saw in the vision 3 years ago. I am still becoming. I am always becoming. Goals are for growth. Not the accumulation of things.


Your Brilliant Heart: As Energy, A Brain & The Pulsating Beat Governing Your Life Force.

“Very few people understand the heart. In truth, your heart is one of the masterpieces of creation. It is a phenomenal instrument… In most human beings, the heart does its work unattended. Even though its behavior governs the course of our lives, it is not understood. If at any given point in time the heart happens to open, we fall in love. If at any given point in time it happens to close, the love stops. If the heart happens to hurt, we get angry, and if we stop feeling it altogether, we get empty. All of these different things happen because the heart goes through changes… You are the experiencer of your heart…the heart is actually very simple to understand. It is an energy center, a chakra… The heart controls the energy flow by opening and closing. This means that the heart, like a valve, can either allow the flow of energy to pass through, or at can restrict the flow of energy from passing through. If you observe your heart, you know very well what it feels like when it’s open and what it feels like when it’s closed. You can be experiencing great feelings of love while in the presence of someone, until they say something you don’t like. Then your heart closes towards them, and you simply don’t feel the love anymore. We have all experienced this, but what exactly is causing it…What you will find is that the heart closes because it becomes blocked by stored, unfinished energy patterns from your past…As events take place in this world, they come in through your senses and have an impacts on your inner state of being. The experience of these events may bring up some fear, some anxiety, or maybe some love….it is actually energy coming into your being. “ –Michael Singer.

Traditional researchers tended to measure how the heart responds to the brain. Not the other way around. What we began to discover in the late 60s and early 1970s is that the brain, actually, responds to the heart. 

The brain and the heart have a dynamic, two way conversation. Each power center continually influences each other. The heart has a massive influence on the brain and most certainly affects how we perceive and also how we belong to the world. 

This is powerful information. Perhaps mystics have known this for a long time, but he brain, is not the only control center. 

The heart communicates in 4 ways: neurologically, biochemically (hormones), biophysically, (pulse waves) and through energetic communication (electromagnetic field). 

In fact, your heart actually has it's own logic, very often acting independently of the signals sent from the brain. Ever known it was time to leave a relationship, but your heart and soul would not allow it? Right... 

Your heart actually has it's own brain. The "heart brain" as it is often called, was discovered at the birth of neurocardiology, when a group of cardiologists joined forces with a group o neurophysiologists and neuroanatomists to delve into mutual interests. Party time, y'all. (I am such a nerd. I know. ) The heart brain, or intrinsic cardiac nervous system, is an intricate network of complex ganglia, neurotransmitters, proteins and support cells (the same as those found int he brain). because of the heart brain's neural circuitry, it can act independently of the cranial brain to learn, recall, decide, feel and sense. 

Scientists have discovered that:

The heart, in fact, sends more information to the brain, than the brain does to the heart. 

Take a moment to appreciate this. 

Take a moment to appreciate how powerful, intelligent, precious, and wise all the cells in your heart center are. 

Appreciate the massive network of genius that causes you experience the world the way that you do, is. 

Take care of your heart. Listen to your heart. Your physical body has it's own intelligence, and even it's own consciousness. Your physical body, metaphysically speaking, is part of the elemental realm. 

Align with your heart. Talk to your cells. Ask your heart what it needs to feel safe, open, free and loved. 

When the heart is not cared for, stressed, overtaxed, and not given time to rest it becomes vulnerable to disease. In an early study confronting the relationship between the heart and stress stimuli, half of the patients who had heart failure traverse deep emotional upsets that precipitated the trauma. 

Health is not the absense of disease but the sustained balance between many realms of the multidimensional self. 

Your emotional, hormonal, biochemical, electromagnetic, pulsating frequency filled Heart Brain, is an integral part of your sustained thriving in this life. 

May we honor the heart, individually and in relationship. May we honor our love, needs, rest, and health--in all realms. 

This Valentine's Day, do not narrow your attention to a single and simplified aspect of your dynamic heart of depth. Consider the spectrum of its communication and power. 

I will say it again...

The heart sends more information to the brain, than the brain does to the heart. 

Your heart, is smarter than your head. 

Stay in love. 

Happy Valentine's Day to you and your beautiful heart. 


4 Powerful Ways Crystals Rock Your Vibe

Kalisa holding her 1.8 million year old Stoller cut quartz used on her Crystal Light Bed. 

Kalisa holding her 1.8 million year old Stoller cut quartz used on her Crystal Light Bed. 

How Crystals Can Rock Your Vibe: Science Explained Simply. 

There is so much mainstream media attention around crystals right now and I am glad of it! These precious, starlight jewels deserve all the accolade and pomp they are given. But, what’s the deal? Why are they so great? I’ve had so many reporters ask me about why crystals heal.

If you are interested in culture’s response to crystal healing, check out W Magazine’s recent article about crystals here: http://www.wmagazine.com/story/crystals-go-mainstream-behind-the-crystal-healing-obsession 

And Vogue’s piece this fall: http://www.vogue.com/article/crystal-bed-therary-kalisa-augustine 

Yes, crystals, and especially Crystal Bed Therapy, can help give you what I call the Unicorn Sparkle Factor. But, truth be told, there is a lot of science and spiritual understanding that goes into the complexity of therapeutic grade quartz crystal healing and more specifically, crystal release techniques.

At their core, crystals can be likened to frozen light. Held within a physical structure is a perfect and systematic order of molecular and energetic patterning. Precisely cut, they can be used as an energy device to balance, organize and smooth the human energy field or vibrations in a space. They can even restructure your drinking water!

Not only are they pretty to look at, crystals can literally elevate your vibe. If you were to take away some simple understandings that might enliven your interest in these gorgeous human helpers, I would break it down like this…

1. Trust Mother Nature’s Intelligence – Crystals Are Here For A Reason. The Earth doesn’t produce a natural abundance of a plant or an element needlessly. Nature, when left un-tampered by man, is efficient, intelligent, and perfect in design. Gaia would not produce tons of crystals if we weren’t meant to use, cherish, and work with them! Next to oxygen, crystals are the 2nd most abundant element in Earth’s crust. They are here as nature angels gifted from the universe.

2. Crystals Can Talk To Your Cells. A crystal’s natural structure is a six-sided prism with a terminated end. Crystals share this configuration with water and energy molecules. It is sort of this cool thing in physics. And not only that, crystals vibrate at the same frequency as water and the human body (456 hz). This resonant structure and vibration allows for direct communication with your cells. And remember when I said that crystals are like frozen light? Their molecular structure is perfect? Well, with the right intention they can cause the water molecules in your body to elevate and match it’s perfect patterning. In a nutshell, the like vibe and structure opens the door to physiological communication, and their perfect patterns elevate your cells.
So. Cool.


3. Crystals Create Energy Grids. Natural crystals are amplifiers, transducers, and organizers of energy. Crystals made in the Earth are programmed by Earth’s electromagnetic field to bring about balance to life forms around them. Crystals help the plants, animals, and trees found in the vicinity of the crystal’s location. They form a crystal grid of energy movement around them affecting the vibration of the space. Imagine a gridwork of sparkling light and perfect patterns that emanate from a crystalline form! This is why it feels so good to have them in your home, on your person, at work, etc. The energy grids spread the love vibes! 

4. Crystals Aren’t Trendy. They are Timeless. They’ve really got it all wrong. Crystals aren’t New Age. They aren’t fresh to the scene. Everyone else is. Crystals are as old as our 4.6 billion year old planet. The one’s I work with are millions of years old. Because they are storage information devices, they are sort of like Earth’s geological and conscious record keepers. Crystals are ancient healers and the mainstream just getting used to these ideas. Crystals are OGs. Crystals don't fu*k with trends. Your ancient ancestors worked with them. Before that, plants and animals did. I mean, they’ve been around as long as sand and sandstone have been naturally oxidizing in the Earth’s crust. Feel me? (I’m a nerd. I know.) Anything timeless is meant to be. Any great work of art that lasts through the ages does so because the message speaks to the soul, over and over again, for generations to come. Crystals are energy healers for your soul. Trust what is timeless.

I'll Take Extraordinary, With A Side Of Magic

I was listening to an old Wayne Dyer lecture the other evening, when I heard him say something that spoke to the way I live my life. This teacher is one of the greats who wrote and spoke of manifestation and aligning with God. Since feeling burnt out over the holidays, I have instilled a much deeper ritual around my self-care practice. My evening jam consists of a mini energy clearing, meditation, spiritual study, and then journaling while working with personal affirmations, emotional visualization and prayer. As I was absorbing Wayne Dyer’s message, he spoke words that helped me understand my own internal drive. It was just a simple statement. He said that ordinary, just wasn’t good enough for him. He wanted to live an extraordinary life, and that he most certainly did. There is nothing wrong with ordinary. I have no judgments against it at all. There is true beauty in simplicity and I believe that whole-heartedly. But ever since I was a child, I felt out of place in an ordinary frequency, in monotony, in just going about my business with the way things are. It was as if everything felt off, wrong. And now years later as an adult I can verbalize what I felt as a child. Society needs healing, and I felt wrong aligning with the normal, lower vibrations around me. On so many levels of my being: the emotional body, mental, spiritual, physical body, intuitive body— every damn realm has violently rejected what is standard and normal. I can’t eat “normal” food (fake GMO pesticide filled crap that is the standard American diet). I have sensitivities to environmental toxins. Through many types of sickness over the course of my life, I have rejected what is ordinary and frankly my body won’t let me tolerate it. My spirit has always wanted heaven on Earth. A part of me remembers. I remember what it should be,from a deep place within, because I am meant to. We are meant to bring about the higher frequencies that whisper to our souls. Is ordinary healthy? Is normal the way?
Most people don’t believe they have the power to access their gifts, or they believe those entirely special and unique gifts, are not going to support them financially. Some people believe it is too much work and energy to change things for themselves. There are the kids. There are the bills. I am already working this job, and it’s ok. I can deal with it. I have to do these errands. Maybe later. Well this is what is in front of me, so I’ll just take that. It’s easier. Everyone is waiting for the weekend, the next break, and living with constant stress and anxiety. But I believe the energy of extraordinary, the energy of pure potential, wis intrinsically your birthright and path back home. The world, as it stands, is not set up for most to grow up accessing their extraordinary. Yes, perhaps it takes a little more work. But, to me, it is worth the pioneering effort. It always has been.
In the spiritual community there seems to be two schools of thought. One being to accept what is, release all desire and attachment, stop placing your own mental constructs around what is good and bad, let things unfold however they will and do not judge it. Do not care what happens. Why do you think it has to be a certain way? You become unhappy when you want things to be a certain way, and they are not. Release desires. And I believe this ideal, but only to an extent. The other school says: manifest, co-create, expand, let your natural desires lead the way to your becoming, go forth, create, make it rain, baby! The world is your oyster! Go get it! Remove what blocks stand in your path for there is always a solution. You can figure it out if you want to. And you know what? I think it's kind of fun to figure things out. I enjoy it. If any of you know me personally or professionally, I am of the latter philosophical camp. This does not mean I do not ascribe to the first school of thought. Acceptance and letting things unfold, is peppered when appropriate into my desire and drive to manifest an extraordinary life. There must be a beautiful, harmonic tap dance between co-creation and living life hands off.
I will be honest with you; I have a burning and relentless drive to create magic, meaning, beauty, and magnificence. I will do whatever it takes. Magic and magnificence, creativity and expansion, is worth my time and effort. It will be worth it until the day I die. I have been in places where I have been completely broke, jobless, alone, scared and I looked around and said, “No, I do not accept this.” And I changed things. I have been in jobs that don’t feel right, where something feels off, and said again, I do not accept this. If something feels off, it usually is. And so I made changes. I’ve been in negative situations that I have judged as unpleasant, seen patterns repeated that are out of alignment with what I was trying to create, been in groups of people that don’t feel like the right circle of friends, and thought it is time to change things. You can tell where you are in life by what types of people and circumstances you are attracting. I know who I am. I know what I am capable of. I know my soul. My human self is learning, growing and becoming that pure potential. My life joy is learning to merge the two. Knowing my higher self so deeply and intimately has guided my journey back home for the last 12 years. 
I believe in accepting the truth in a circumstance, taking that truth and deciding what you are going to do about it. I believe in acceptance, but I don’t believe in just accepting what is happening if it is not aligned with your expansion. 
Get up. Do something about it. If it is in your control, there is nothing to worry about because you can make changes that will affect your life for the better. If you do not have control over it, don’t worry about it because there is nothing you can do. This is where allowance, letting things unfold, accepting what is, takes its rightful place in my world. Indeed, there is only so much you can do. But my goodness don’t squash your desires in an overemphasis of neutrality and acceptance. That is called spiritual bypass. All must be in balance. It is too easy to play the “Well I am just going to stay low, stay broke, stay a victim, stay here, because I accept how things are and they are just going to unfold as it will and I don’t have a say around it so might as well not even try.”
Bullshit. If you can balance inner work with outer work with clear direction, focus, joy, and acceptance—watch our world. Baby’s comin’ on up.
You are powerful! You are a child of the divine and a piece of the soul of the world is in your heart. You have the same abilities and resources as everyone else. I am not speaking to you now, having taken a role in this community, because I accepted what is or because I accepted the ordinary. You gotta risk it to get the biscuit, baby. Life is so much more rewarding, enriching, deep, exciting and worth living when you are actively involved in the process of bringing about desired circumstances that align with what is natural to YOU. I love life. I love playing the game. I love growing. I love learning. I love feeling. I love making mistakes and then learning from them. I love all of it. I love the wisdom that comes from being down. I love the elation and excitement from being up. I love the new and special soul mates I’ve met from expanding my world, taking risks and coming into new circumstances. I love choosing what types of people and vibrations I want to be around. I love discerning what is not good or good for me. I am like a spiritual scientist. I love changing my mind, because I grew out of a circumstance. I am constantly growing and changing and that makes me feel alive. The experience of intimate living utterly fascinates me. The universal soul story of ascension utterly fascinates me. I am committed to and dedicated to my expansion. I know what it feels like to die. And I know what is feels like to rise. It makes me good at what I do, and connecting with you. And the soul story of your heroic journey, your becoming, my dear friend, is your ultimate story. It is my story. And the pulsating current of movement within that river of conscious evolution is your ability to manifest and co-create. The universe has a heartbeat. Listen. That is your heartbeat. The universe is expanding. This is your expansion. You were created. You are part of creation. Therefore you are creative. That is why you are here: to create. Yes, accept the truth. Accept that which you cannot change. Accept and let things be. Live for the process and excitement of creating without attachment to outcome, but don’t throw your mojo out the window! Don’t let any idea disempower you, make you lazy, stifle your excitement to move and learn. Go on, shake thing up a bit, take risks, let your curiosity take your for a ride. This is the art of being childlike. This is looking at the world with deep wonder. This is the art of imagination, perception, and choosing what type of world you are going to live in. Accept what is, but do not accept a life that is unnatural to your soul’s journey of becoming. One thing is true that I can tell you:
If it doesn’t feel natural, it isn’t going to work. 
Period. That doesn’t mean there aren’t going to be soul challenges to work through. It doesn't mean you don't have to have patience and work for it. Nobody is above challenges or growth. Intrinsic in the experience of life is an element of discomfort. Discomfort can speak to you, tell you where to go, how to move, indicate what is natural or not, and steer you towards what you need to work on, etc. Discomfort is wisdom. But if the role you are playing doesn’t feel inherently natural to your soul, if there isn’t a sense of ease in connection on an energetic level, it isn’t going to work. When you look at life from a higher perspective, oh how much easier it becomes to see through false illusion, false beliefs, and transcending mental concepts around what is or isn’t possible. What a joy to live this way! That we must grudge through an uninspired rat race, work jobs that we hate, let systems, institutions, or the way things are disempower us spiritually or physically, is false. No. I believe we are here to change the way things are done so humans can experience expansion more freely, naturally, and create a better world for us all.

When we are fueled by inspiration we become more excited to play with our gifts and have the energy to make them come alive in the material world. Those gifts and talents are roadmaps towards genius. Were all of humanity able to truly harness the pure potential of our innate genius, this world would change in an instant. When you stay low, and accept low-level living, you are ignoring parts of your genius. I do not judge any path as right or wrong. Everyone gets to make their choices, and live how they want to. My way is not the right way for everyone. But word on the street is it’s a pretty juicy way to pulse with life.
You are not little. You are big. You are not ordinary. You are the most extraordinary network of 34 trillion cells of genius that knew exactly how to become a physical human without you telling it what to do. You are intelligence incarnate. What you tolerate is what will continue. I don’t believe in luck. I believe in flow. And part of experiencing states of flow is choosing what do to and how to move through this world. Perhaps there is work to get to that state. I work on it daily. I will always be a student. But I so deeply trust because I am guided by the light, and I know that in states of light filled flow I can easily expect miracles. Dance with worlds beyond what you see around you. Go on world; give me the challenge. I bask in God’s school of learning, for better or worse. I am lucky to be here and so are you.
Play with life.
So, go on kitten, what do you want?

It is my hope these words serve you well. With all my heart, soul, and dedication, I am grateful to you for listening. 

With Extraordinary Sincerity,



The very breath we all share is precious. More often than not lately, we are experiencing individually and collectively a deeper meaning through loss. The year 2016 was the end of a 9-year cycle, according to numerology. It was a year of endings accompanied by the experience of completions. It was a time to culminate transitions, let go, take in and let it rest. End scene. Any time we experience a death, symbolically or literally, rebirth and regenerations awaits the other side, if we are ready to cultivate a healthy perspective. Maybe parts of your personality that at one time secured your survival but are no longer necessary to sustain your life force, are dying; or perhaps loved ones or family members are transitioning to the other side leaving blank space in your lives or hearts; or a true love has slipped through your fingertips like lost water. For some of you it is socio-political hope that is gone. Many sensitive souls can no longer handle the denser vibrations rising to the surface as energetically toxic and oppressive. It is time to take charge of what is working and what is not, claim the power of your breath and co-create with higher energies what you want to see and feel everyday. Just live life the way you'd like to. That is all. Go sober, stop saying yes to shit you hate, don't hang out with assholes, meditate, make an exit strategy for the soul sucking career, take vacation. You don’t need to go out looking for some epic force, searching for some spiritual experience to change your life. The essence of the universe is in all things. When we see this, the ordinary becomes extraordinary. Study the Tao. Notice how it feels to flip the pages of an old book with your finger tips. Notice how the flower bloomed more today than yesterday, and how sunlight is diffused through translucent petals creating a language of the soul that knows no words. Let us be of service in this world, leave legacy and contribution. Let us be grateful every day that we are alive that we get to experience the human condition. You are not above it. You are it. It is okay to feel sad, lost and confused in this transition. It is healthy to acknowledge what you are experiencing, but know that you are not alone in this world.

You never walk alone. Even when you forget, disbelieve there is a higher order, feel betrayed or forgotten… No, sweet love you are completely supported. Parts of you are regenerating, understanding, building up, learning who is in your tribe, who is important, what is important and how to be the type of person who honors what is most valuable.
There are worlds upon worlds that exist in other dimensions and realities connected to this 3D Earth world plane. When I say you are not alone, I mean it. Angels are messengers of Spirit. They are not specific to any one religion. They do not have egos but are part of a higher order in a spiritual realm. They are co-creators and helpers in any process that leads to your highest good and understanding. You might think of them as personal spiritual assistants. There are many types of angels in different levels, or triads of creation, so to speak. Some of you may have resistance to the word Angel because of the religious association. But I would ask you to open your mind to what this actually means. You might liken an angel to an archetype that exists to serve and help us in our becoming. The Greeks used deities as archetypes and there is nothing wrong with personifying values into a way that serves deeper meaning. From a purely energetic level and without any attachment to what really is and what really isn’t, let me break it down for you: Angels are representative of psychic vortexes. These are very real energies. Whether or not you believe they have feathers, wings or halo’s… I really couldn’t care less. I see what I see and feel and if you want to know more about my personal experience, feel free ask me in your next session. Some people see them as energetic forms of color and light. They have a specific frequency that is absolutely undeniable. I could not do the work that I do, without aid of these energetic vortexes of divinity. Period. It ain't just the crystals. What you feel and experience on the crystal light bed has to do with our ability to use these powerful vibrational therapies to tap into higher realities and powers that help release and cleanse your field.

Whoa, I know... 
Angels have specific duties that may lend themselves to certain life areas with unique expertise. By calling on these assistants, we call upon illumination, energetic support and love to helps us find our way, as well as aids the manifestation process. Without them, I know I would still be lost, afraid, alone, stuck in trauma patterns and unable to see my purity. They may be personified as having genders, but ultimately they are genderless.
You have to ask. They will not intervene without your permission. Ask the light and the light will come. Set an intention to receive wisdom that is from your highest good. Nourish the relationship.

What you appreciate, appreciates.

How can you expect light to serve if you do not serve it?
Here is a list of Archangels to call upon in times of need. Remember, these are powerful energies. Do not get hung up on the name and your own resistance to a mental concept muddied with pre-conceived notions. Open your mind and go deeper into thespiritual energy that these powerful beings represent. They are guardians of humanity, nature, nations, the earth, romance, karmic balancing, protectors against darkness and so on and on.

As always it is my hope that this information serves you well. These angel descriptions is paraphrased from the IEL Institute Training Manuel from my teacher and friend Russell Forsyth. If you would like more information about the IEL Institute and how you can learn more, send me a personal email. I am taking on a master trainer role within this program and am excited to teach this work to those of you ready learn. 

Big Love,


Archangel Ariel: Lioness of God, bravery, focus, courage, elegant movements, boost confidence, divine magic, manifestation, animals. 

Archangel Azriel: "Whom God Helps", animals, environmental concerns, grief, death. 

Archangel Samuel: " God Sees", finder of lost items, helps when lost, find career, love, global peace. 

Archangel Gabriel: "Messenger of God", writing, speaking, communication to teachers, throat chakra, the arts, mothers, children, parenting. 

Archangel Haniel: "Glory of God", uses moon energy to aid with miraculous shifts, helps live highest potential, polish your skills, magical, nurturing. 

Archangel Jeremiel: "Mercy of God", in difficult times call him to delivery mercy to all involved, develop more merciful outlook, respect for self and others, assists life review when we cross over. 

Archangel Jophiel: "Beauty of God", beauty in all forms, spring cleaning, feng shui angel, helps beautify relationships, environments, or life itself. 

Archangel Metatron: Chief angel to Tree of Life, Enoch, overseer of Indigo, Crystal, and Rainbow Children (more on that in another newsletter), time bender, shape shifter, sacred geometry. 

Archangel Michael: "He Who Is Like God", cuts negativity, courage, protection, warrior energy with sword of light cutting through blocks, love, power, strength, faith. 

Archangel Raguel: "Friend of God" healing relationships, softens heart with forgiveness, harmony, order, cooperation, kindness, wisdom, fairness. 

Archangel Raphael: "Heals with God", supreme healer in the angelic realm, personal healing, healing careers, divine guidance. 

Archangel Raziel: "Secrets of God", delivers esoteric wisdom of Spirit, ancient secrets, alchemy, works with spiritual l teachers and students. You could liken him to the archetype Merlin. 

Archangel Sandalphon: "Together with God", helps children, artists, musicians, actors, writers, anyone in the arts, prophecy, healing, manifestation, awakening. 

Archangel Saraqael: "Prayer of God", helps people connect to Spirit through prayer, helps those who need focus and concentration, motivates people to share their truth with Universe. 

Archangel Uriel: "Light of God", fire or flame of God, healing life through the mental planes, psychic release, negative thought forms, ability to enlighten mind.

Archangel Zadkiel: "Righteousness of God", helps transitions from one aspect to another, spiritual professor, helps human memory function, release forgiveness, heals in dreams. 

Archangel Aniel: "Grace of God" Stars, moon, helps us return to our natural state of grace and integrity to essential self. 

Soul Mates & Twin Flames: On friendship, Love & Beyond.

You do not have just one soul mate, and they do not only come in the form of romantic partners. They are the ones who bleed and breathe with you. Often times there is a similar over soul, or like frequency to which you are both attuned that acts as an umbrella energy. It is likely you have incarnated with them throughout lifetimes. They are called soul mates because they are just that, literally mates for your soul beyond this particular life and the recognition expands outside of time and space perception. When you meet them, you feel a sense of home and familiarity as if your depths can rest from the peace of being seen without explanation, work, or even trying. When we meet soul mates it is truly a divine occurrence.

I’ve been blessed to attract soul mates throughout the years and find deep comfort in these connections. It is said that if a friendship surpasses 7 years it is likely to remain in tact for a lifetime. There are, of course, souls (both platonic and romantic) who come in for a lesson or a specific reason. There are some who come for a season of your life. Then, there are those who remain with you for your life span. Finally we have the ever-elusive twin flame union, but we will get to that later.
In friendships, soul mates are quite obvious. Quite quickly you discover the kindred spirit link, which provides that safety, ease and peace I mentioned earlier. You can also have platonic soul mates whom you love deeply, but find frustrating. If you have a pattern of attracting a similar type of friendship that triggers any type of angst, take a deeper look at what the quality is you find repelling. In meditation, ask about the soul lesson connected to the person. For example, in 3 cities, for 3 years I attracted a type of friend who I did honor, respect and have deep love for, and yet there was always something off. They repelled me and made me feel uncomfortable, as if I couldn't fully be myself. I couldn’t figure out what it was. When I moved to a new city, I would attract a very similar type of friendship. Oddly enough, all of their names started with the same letter. When I finally discovered the lesson around it, this type of person stopped appearing so powerfully in my life and I was able to let go of that particular triggering friendship. The friendships that remain with you for lifetimes are foundational. There will be times when you vibrate closely with them, and times when there is more separation for the purposes of growth through individuation. Trust where the vibrations take you and do not be afraid when your life time soul mates feel more distant. There is always a reason. I’ve gone through so many phases with one of my best friend soul mates. We would be learning the same lessons for a time, and then her soul went one way while mine went another. Our belief systems would veer and evolve as we did. But, as always, we would come back together and be able to simply stand next to one another, talk for hours and say things that no one else in the world would understand. She has been there for me through my darkest moments, my brightest lights and there is no separation anxiety when it is time for distance. She will always be a soul mate.
And now we have the karmic lover. Oh Lord, have mercy. I cannot tell you how many people come into my office in a panic and sweat, torn and twisted inside, feeling the pain, ecstasy, power and bliss that comes with push/pull patterning with your classic “hot-as-fuck-magnetic-as-fuck-divine-soul-mate-lover-balancing-karmic-energy”… Pumpkin, I'm sorry to break it to you, but it’s a classic. S(He) isn’t necessarily the “one”. {If you are having trouble letting go of an unbalanced soul mate relationship, come get a crystal bed session and we can remove hooks, cords and release karmic energy associated with the connection.} When soul mates meet, often times that karmic energy can be initially translated as sexual chemistry, especially when your soul mate comes packaged in the body of someone you wouldn’t mind making out with. I am not a lesbian (though, damn … sometimes I sure wish I was). I am probably 20% gay. But I can count a few times where I met a female soul mate who was so powerful to me, that I could not tell if I was sexually attracted to her or if it was karmic energy. It would take some time and then I would realize, “Oh! She is a soul mate and a huge part of my life!” That sexual, questioning chemistry would fade and I would know it as karmic chemical reaction happening and then fading.
I date and am attracted to men. And have had enough years of dating as a spiritual practice, taken courses and workshops, and experience with divine soul mates to understand the different types of frequencies. I see how these experiences and understandings help my clients. Meeting romantic soul mates can offer a love, brilliance, magnetism, and power that can put you over the moon! But all too often these soul mates connections can manifest as what we call entanglements. Entanglements are not relationships. The power of the connection keeps you linked but they can have unhealthy relating patterns, be spiritually immature, or even abusive and depleting. Your emotional wounds will be triggered and it can feel extremely uncomfortable to be enmeshed in these types of connections. Usually, they end very badly. What is so beautiful, is that you get the opportunity to open to the deeper parts of yourself and examine the wound being triggered while acknowledging that which needs healing within you. You are always a vibrational match to what you attract. All you can do is take ownership of your part. And remember, when you don't like something, take away it's only power over you: your attention. Most of the time, you are learning your own boundaries through practice while balancing karma through these experiences.

Having a powerful connection with someone does not mean you are a doormat. It does not mean that you must cling to the person out of fear that nothing that blissful will ever occur again in the future. In fact, in means that you get the opportunity to practice balancing love with strength and honoring your soul’s integrity even when you want to drop to your knees in the wake of love that feels like a high. Because, my dear, guess what? Your relationship with yourself is more important than any other relationship in this world. There is no pain that can ever truly weaken your spirit. We experience things that break us down until we realize that we are inherently unbreakable. There is nothing that anyone could ever take away from you. You are the only one who can truly block your divinity and power. That bliss is within you. Now, it certainly feels amazing when a soul mate, with whom you are so deeply familiar, is shinning their light and vortex upon you. It is so much energy! It feels amazing! But ultimately it is your job and your work to feel blissful by staying connected to Spirit and honoring yourself through care, nourishment, healthy communication and behavior that aligns with your boundaries. Remember, what you tolerate is what will continue. Entanglements begin to disappear vibrationally when you’ve learned the associate soul lesson.
There are also romantic soul mates beyond entanglement. This happens when both souls have evolved past drama, but you are still balancing some karmic energy. It is manifested as relationship. There is healthier communication, mutual respect, like values. There are less highs and lows than an entanglement. Some of them will go on to remain with you, some of them leave when the balancing is finished. But with all of this, again, please don’t drop your boundaries for anyone. I don’t care how cute their grin is, how much their eye twinkles, how funny they think you are when you’re mad or how good it feels like when they call you “baby”. And you know, sometimes the most incredible act of love is honoring what was, honoring your needs, honoring the soul lessons associated, and honoring the other person’s process by letting them go. You only keep learning. You can have a deep understanding of what you do actually want, by experiencing what you don’t want. And how can we manifest if we don’t know what we want? So many clients come in clinging to an idea, a mental construct created by how they think it is supposed to be. They are determined to be with this specific soul mate or that one and if they are not, then they will be depressed. They want answers. They want to know what they can do to keep this person. They are creating their own conditions instead of looking at love and opening as a choice and a gift. You do have a choice. Sometimes it makes sense to date and activate Aphrodite energy. Sometimes life lessons are around creating, child raising,  or building professional structures for ourselves. There are those people who come into our lives, and we realize there is no choice but to surrender. The thing is, that the paradigm of what relationship was, is evolving as human consciousness evolves. We are called to be more open, more clear, more loving, and to communicate authentically. Again that does not mean we allow behavior from another that hurts our soul. But it is incredibly sexy and beautiful to allow the other person their process while honoring your own. You do not know who is meant to stay with you, until you let go of them. It is only pure if they walk with you by choice.

Finally, there is the twin flame. Pull out the big guns y’all. This is the most intense type of relationship one can have on this Earth plane. All emotions are intensified as you are telepathically, metaphysically and spiritually connected. You have prepared yourself through experiencing karmic soul mate relationships (again the ones that are super intense but also extremely difficult and don't usually end well). The twin flame will test you. It is said to be the other half of your soul within the original spark of your creation. There is a masculine flame and a feminine flame. Usually one part of the flame (or energy) serves as a spirit guide while the other incarnates, and vice versa. Supposedly, upon final incarnation, the two come together in the same life and it is said that the meeting can be one of the most trying, powerful and expansive unions ever. You have the same core essence and values but come at them from total opposite perspectives! How perfect for soul growth and the dissolving of ego. The two of you are complete opposites and exactly the same. You are duality, united; the perfect relationship balance in essence. All too often, people think they’ve met their twin flame and tolerate unhealthy behavior. Understand that not everyone is incarnated with their twin. It is a very special and the most divine occurrence. You see, the union of these souls creates a third type of energy between them that is at their disposal to use for creation and manifestation. It is the most powerful energy that exists. This is the energy that creates worlds. We all have it within us, but when created between two flames, the energy is intensified. And to be spiritually rewarded with this creative gift, so to speak, you must pass tests and work to dissolve ego. It’s one of those relationships where you’re doing great, you think you’re super spiritual and you’ve got your shit together. Then this person knocks your socks off and you realize you still have a lot of work to do. Spirit doesn’t just hand this creative energy out to those who are not prepared on a soul level with a certain spiritual maturity. If you are not ready, you don’t get to work with this energy. You can liken this dynamic to a trinity, of sorts. These two flames together create a third flame even brighter. Their union lights up the world. At this time many twin flames are coming together to create new energies, new divine structures and paradigms that will change the course of humanity. The time is ripe for these types of unions. This is no joke and it ain’t easy. And there are different stages of coming together with this person. Firstly, there is usually logistical difficulty. There are age differences, cultural differences, location differences. They pop up at the wrong time, or live half way across the world. One partner may be in a relationship. But no matter the difficulty surrounding circumstance, meeting your flame activates and enlivens you while awakening previously dormant energies within you. When you meet this person you are truly home and it is completely mutual. You could gaze at them cross eyed for days, talk to them all night and day, melding into one energy. The feelings of love are undeniable to you both. The sexual chemistry is beyond powerful and seals the activation. There is a love bubble phase and many synchronicities that seem to be orchestrated by the universe surround this first meeting. Spirit designs this to restore faith, and propel the two flames together. Often times, it is usually more difficult for one soul to handle the intensity of the connection because it is so powerful. As the connection deepens you come into some sort of understood union or partnership with this person. True love blooms. This activation happens in a very short time frame and this time period gives you a glimpse of what a real union would be like. It is perfection. After that initial stage, it is said that the bubble bursts and not only do intense love feelings emerge but fears of the ego. Wounds, unbalanced energies, and pains arise on both sides to be cleared and healed and these feelings are just as intense as the feelings of love. Each partner must work on themselves without focusing on or controlling the other person’s healing process. The flame splits and there is usually a “runner” and a “chaser” during this separation phase. One person begins to feel overwhelmed, exposed and on a deep level has a fear of being controlled, while the other has a deep fear of rejection. They both go their separate ways and continue to evolve through individuation. One person wants the relationship, the other questions whether they can handle the intensity. Usually the runner is slightly less spiritually advanced though both partners are in the same realm here. Sometimes this phase is handled easily, within a few weeks. For others it could take months, even years in some cases. And sometimes, because of blocks from ego, twins will not reunite, only to know that love is there, viewing it from afar. This separation phase is a moment of deeper discernment as to whether or not both partners are ready for the immensity and intensity of the relationship. After the separation, the twins fully evolve and come together as one. The number sequences 11:11 can be associated with the twin flame union. The sexual chemistry is beyond any sexual experience previously known. And the relationship itself is like none other. In fact, it is said to be beyond mental constructs of relationship. It is union. If you find yourself working through twin flame dynamics, remember to stay focused on your own growth process and boundaries. Be honest with yourself around what is fear, what is ego, and what is real. If you are lucky enough to have attracted this gift, stay with the growth. The rewards are waiting.
As in all things, we have a choice as to how we handle the gifts, the love, the experiences, and the soul mates we manifest. The universe says, “Here, here child, this is your gift. What will you do with it? Will you learn from it? Will you appreciate it? Will you abuse yourself? Will you abuse the other? Will you compromise? Will you communicate? Will you ignore? Will you deny? Will you look deeper at yourself and your issues? Will you throw it away? Will you be the doormat? Will you come from fear? Do you know what you want? Will you stop controlling the other? Will you love and empower yourself?

You, yourself are the only thing you can control. What your soul mate does or does not do, what he or she decides is not your concern. If he or she makes a decision that you deem tragic, so be it. You have the opportunity to grow, no matter what the circumstance. The pain is but an illusion and the only thing that is truly real from the experience is love and growth.
Never compromise yourself, your honor, or your integrity for the sake of a soul mate.
Do not put up false walls because of the pain of entanglement. That which you protect so deeply is the magic that will save you.
Never harm yourself for the idea of blissful love or a mental construct of what you think it should be.
Let go of everything but your divinity and true connection to Spirit. Whoever stays for that ride, is meant to be by your side.
Trust that process.
Let us honor our soul mates: the light and the dark, and the growth in between. Forgive and receive. You are the transcendent neutrality beyond that duality, child of the light. Come forth and know yourself. You are God incarnate.
I love you. 

As always, it is my hope that this information serves you well. Blessed be this holiday season.

Vogel Cut, Therapeutic Grade Crystal Technology.

Art by Christopher Mancinelli Rodriguez for Crystal Bed Therapy

Art by Christopher Mancinelli Rodriguez for Crystal Bed Therapy

Vogel Cut, Therapeutic Grade Crystal Technology.

And The Good Reason I Use Them...

When people wake up from sessions with me they really do try and act cool. I give you guys credit for trying, but please, honey... take it easy. I always say, "Take your time coming back to full consciousness." And guys, I mean it! People pop out of the bed like one of the 7 dwarfs on their way to work, take a first step onto solid ground and either stumble, feel dizzy or experience confusion. Lacking the understanding, initially, of the mountains of energy we moved and the places we must travel with our consciousness in order to do so, everybody wants to play it cool and charge back into NYC taking on the world like the champions that you all are.

I get it, but, let us just slow down and respect the power of the crystals.

Sessions can be transformative and intense. As many of you know we are doing extremely deep work that you may not fully understand. And that is perfectly okay. In fact, you don't fully need to understand it. The work that I do and the experiences people have are not necessarily meant for human description. There is magnetic therapy, sound healing, chromo-therapy and finally our perfectly cut crystals. I want to discuss, with those of you so interested in crystal healing, why I use therapeutic grade Vogel style crystals on the bed. 

Check out the article below. 

THE POWER OF CRYSTALS: The Legacy of Marcel Vogel.
by Susan Barber
(Based on an interview with his friend and associate Rumi Da) Source: CrystalWind.ca


There are a myriad of sources, in books and on the Internet where you may learn about healing with crystals. Their focus and complexity, like the crystals themselves, come in many assorted flavors. Mainly, this data consists of sincere teachings by alternative therapists. But if you research the subject, you also will find reams of other material about crystals – claims, sometimes hyperbolic, of those who sell them; texts so technical that they are virtually unreadable by the layman; and channeled discourses of Ascended Masters and other Extra-Terrestrial informants – to name a few. In all of this plethora of information, one source, one man, stands above the rest. His name is Marcel Vogel. In this article, we will refer to him, as his friends did, as Marcel – to distinguish him from the Vogel, or ''Vogel-cut® crystal,'' which was his legacy.

We spoke with Rumi Da, Marcel's protégé, close friend, and the steward of Marcel's crystal technology, who told us this revealing story:

The last time I was with Marcel, it was his 49th wedding anniversary and he was 72 years old. We were looking in his notebook, and then he closed it, with a really deep sigh, and he said, ''You know, sometimes I think I should stop this work because it's so potentially dangerous.'' A month later, he was gone.

At Marcel's funeral, in 1991, the eulogy, delivered by a medical doctor, includes a description of the man and his accomplishments:

"Those of us who are scientists or physicians and who worked with Marcel Vogel were well aware of his scientific achievements: his extraordinary work with phosphors, bio luminescence, luminescent paints, and the design of magnetic-disc coatings in computers. He was one of the most prolific scientists in IBM history, with over 100 patents in his name. Yet, until his recent honorary Ph.D., he possessed no official university degree. He made his mark because of the brilliance of his mind, his prolific ideas, and his seemingly limitless creativity." (Eulogy by Dr. Bernard McGinty)

Rumi Da admits that, although Marcel was a scientist's scientist who normally chose to interact with officialdom from that model, he was really a shaman, pure and simple. ''Marcel often held workshops for people in the medical profession,'' Rumi Da said. ''They would walk in as MD's, and walk out wearing feathers.''

Not to minimize Marcel Vogel's 100-plus patents and his awesome vision, he made two overwhelmingly important contributions to building the necessary bridge between science and Spirit. The first is central to this article:

He developed a way of cutting quartz crystals in order to magnify their power exponentially for healing purposes...

Marcel was not only famous, but also somewhat notorious, Rumi Da said. "This basically came out of the work that he'd done on human-plant communication, which made its way into the now-famous book The Secret Life of Plants. ''This was all new, and it was a challenge to science.''

But it led, finally, to Marcel's work with crystals. ''The plants could not handle all the psychic energy he was focusing on them in his experiments. They were dying, OD'd on energy. So Marcel turned to quartz crystals, instead. ''And he found that the un-faceted ones were very limited in what they could do. But the real problem was, they were all different, so they all gave different results. That kind of thing is a nightmare for science, because it means you can't duplicate an experiment. So Marcel cut the crystals in order to have repeatable experiments.''

Marcel tried many different shapes for cutting crystals – six-sided, single terminated, double terminated, and so on. But he had had a vision of the Kabbalistic Tree of Life. And although he didn't know what that meant at the time, he kept returning to this shape. Eventually, it became the four-sided underlying pattern for what is now known as the Vogel-cut® crystal.

Crystals, as Marcel knew, can both store and recover information. A group of Stanford scientists proved this in concrete terms when they succeeded in putting a 3-dimensional image of the Mona Lisa into a quartz crystal and then retrieving it (Newsweek, September 1994). We also know that crystals can broadcast information; early radios, in fact, were called ''crystal sets.'' And crystal or silicon technology is the basis of computers.

The purpose of using a Vogel crystal is to amplify and cohere the thought and energy that you wish to direct into your body/mind or that of another person.

Amplification we can understand, but coherence is a somewhat difficult concept in physics terms. Simply put, however, at least where light is concerned, coherence is the property exhibited by lasers. If you take ordinary light and make it coherent, what you end up with is a laser beam! So the thought and energy we put into a Vogel crystal not only becomes amplified, but incredibly concentrated and focused. Literally, a Vogel crystal adds to our intent the power of a laser beam. We can begin to understand why Marcel Vogel might have seen danger in this technology.


In order to measure the energy that a crystal was putting out, Marcel developed a radionic device known as the Omega 5. The benchmark ''rate'' on this device for a Vogel crystal is 454. Even very powerful uncut crystals might have only a 333 rating. Other shapes, he found, have different, mostly lesser values, and all are different from authentic Vogels. There are many crystals that Rumi Da calls ''Vogel like.'' In other words, they have been cut into the characteristic shape, with the broad end cut at an approximate 51-degree angle (like the Cheops pyramid) and the other, ''firing'' end cut at a more acute angle in relationship to it. Most of these, he says, are machine made and imprecise. '

'With a true Vogel, if you hold the crystal between thumb and forefinger and twirl it, you can see that the girdle – the place where the tip facets joins the body of the crystal – is perfectly straight. With most counterfeits, the line moves up and down, like a roller coaster.''

But even master stone-cutters cannot reproduce a true Vogel, because the shaping of the crystal is done ''in a sacred manner,'' holding in mind the person who is going to be using it, and it is then programmed in such a way that the crystal cannot be used for harm.

If you try to do something potentially harmful with a Vogel, the tip will break off, or worse [we always would recommend ''getting permission'' before involving yourself in any work of this kind--ed].


Rumi Da said:

I'll tell you a story to illustrate this. It happened to me. I was in a restaurant and found myself sitting at a table beside two people who had a little 7-day-old baby that was a cocaine addict.

I happened to have with me a 6-sided smokey Vogel, and smokey quartz is kind of an energetic sponge, it will absorb toxicity. So I said I wanted to see if I could help the baby. And I put the crystal on the child's chest.

After about 30 seconds, this gorgeous crystal just exploded. It broke into about 6 pieces, and those fell onto the floor and broke into more pieces.

I asked Marcel about it, and he said, ''Never put the crystal on the body of a child.'' And he explained to me that a baby's etheric body is not yet fully formed, and the crystal's power was too strong for it. So either the crystal had to break or the baby had to break, and because the crystal had been programmed not to do harm, it shattered.

Ruefully, Rumi Da added that he wished Marcel had told him this before his $500 crystal ended up in pieces on the floor. But Marcel liked people to learn by doing. ''He wasn't the kind of person who would rob you of your own experience. He would give you just enough to go on, and then let you find out for yourself. But he was always interested to hear what you had discovered.''

Another way in which a Vogel can break is if its rightful owner achieves a major spiritual break-through. ''A person's vibration changes when this happens, but the crystal can't change. So what happens is that the point will break off. You have to send it back to be recut to resonate with your new vibration.'' 

A crystal must be faceted not only with geometrical precision along the''C'' or growth axis, Rumi Da tells us, but must also be worked with right attitude, understanding, and consciousness. It is not simply a matter of mechanically cutting the same general shape.

...There are some things that a genuine Vogel can do that the counterfeit cannot. For example, faceted quartz crystals can structure water. ''But when you remove the crystal, you can tell through the Omega-5 device that the structuring of the water begins to decay. It only lasts for a couple of days. With Vogels, the structuring is permanent. And with some, after you take the crystal out, the vibration actually continues to go higher for about half an hour.''


Because Marcel used scientific instruments to measure his results, he was able to develop an entire technology in the handling, clearing, and programming of crystals. Rumi Da has shared some of this with us, and we include this information for those of you who would like to try to incorporate it into your work – whether for self-healing or in helping others. Many texts say that you should use salt, or salt water to cleanse most crystals. Marcel felt otherwise. Dry salt, he claimed, can scratch the surface, or finish, where some of the programming is stored. And saltwater leaves a film. Marcel also tested other forms of clearing, such as smudging with sage or cedar. These things, according to Rumi Da, did not work. Here's how Marcel says to clear a crystal:

Take a slow, deep breath as you focus on the crystal with the intent to clear it.

Then, pulse out your breath, in a burst through the nostrils. You can do this from anywhere. In workshops, people learn to clear their crystals first while holding them, then at a distance, and then from the next room. This way, they learn through experience that the distance doesn't matter.



You are going to be putting Love and well-being into your crystal. It helps to recall a real, physical experience of love. Rumi Da says that sometimes he even thinks about his Schnauzer licking him on the face.''Just pure love.'' The technique is pretty much the same as for clearing:

Breathe in the Love and well-being.

Hold your breath and focus and concentrate this feeling.

Pulse your breath out, this time mentally directing the Love and well-being into the crystal.


If you have done this correctly and with loving intent, Rumi Da said, you can hold your breath and you will feel your body resonate with the crystal, and it will vibrate in your hand. For some people it takes practice to feel this and others feel it right away. You may feel a reality shift. Once it has been cleansed and charged, you mentally put into the crystal whatever else it is you want to work with. But, again, the foundation is Love, Rumi Da said. ''That is an absolute requirement. Will is not enough.''

I asked why we can't simply learn to do these things ourselves. Since we are simply energy, anyway, why do we need the crystal? ''Marcel and I used to have this conversation a lot,'' Rumi Da answered. ''Why can't you just point your finger? ''Basically, I think what Marcel would say is that the crystal amplifies and coheres whatever you put into it. So wherever you are, the crystal is going to amplify and cohere that.''


Because the crystal holds whatever pattern you put into it, and then broadcasts that pattern wherever you want it to go, as long as what you are doing is lawful you can change the functioning of glands and organs in the body. With diabetics, for example, they've done work using the crystals to duplicate the work of a healthy pancreas. Rumi Da told of a case where one man was able to stop using insulin completely through the agency of working with a Vogel crystal. ''Now don't go out and do something stupid,'' he said, ''because this kind of work is experimental. You need to do it under the supervision of an M.D. But many people have been able to decrease their insulin needs by three-fourths, or even completely.''


We said that we would talk about Marcel Vogel's second main legacy. And it was this: He absolutely proved, using scientific, double-blind experiments in his laboratory, that the power, the matrix, the whole web of All That Is consists of Love.

At Marcel's funeral, the same Dr. McGinty we quoted earlier had this to say:

"I was one of a group of 16 physicians privileged to work with him over a number of years with body energies, especially the capacity to focus healing energies with crystals in the treatment of illness. All of us had an extensive background in acupuncture and appreciated the ability to manipulate body energies.

Under Marcel's guidance, some of us began to learn the process of transmitting thought, especially loving thoughts, unconditionally, to our patients. It brought us an even greater capacity to appreciate the power of the mind to influence illness, the power both to heal and exacerbate disease. And, most important of all, to appreciate the incredible presence of unconditional Love and its capacity to trigger transformative shifts in a patient's psyche.

[I]t is for his work with Spirit, his great spiritual strength, his wonderful capacity to love that I will always remember Marcel."

''Marcel always said that Love is the glue of the universe,'' affirms Rumi Da. ''All healing is a consequence of loving.''


You see, we are doing so much more than experiencing consciousness from a gem or mineral. We are using technology to direct healing in a profound and scientific way. This is only one aspect of what makes up a session on the crystal light bed. Please know I am here and available to you during this time of unrest within our country and on our planet. Take use of this spiritual technology to ground and awaken, tap in and experience, open and let go, and come into resonance with your quantum blueprint, your highest potential. 

Right now, humanity needs your best self. And I am honored to be a part of that journey. 



Art by Christopher Mancinelli Rodriguez for Crystal Bed Therapy

Art by Christopher Mancinelli Rodriguez for Crystal Bed Therapy

I will not go on too long about the pain, disappointment, torment, and disgust brought on by the election results. You have had enough of that. I have held back discussing anything until some of the dust had settled and I had enough time to step to find my center. 
And I am working on that daily.
I am extremely sensitive to energies and I found this week nothing short of debilitating.  I felt a heightened need to be connected to myself, my loved ones, and to find a sense of safety and comfort amidst rising rage, depression, and fear. And to be frank, that is a perfectly normal and healthy response.  Yet, let us remember the spiritual context and how we can begin to feel a sense of peace right now. In our communities, through proactive solutions, strategy over reactivity, and coming back to a sense of autonomy over our vibrations we can begin to shift the individual vibration which beyond a doubt shifts the collective. It starts with you. Let us come back to union with God. We are being asked to dig deep right now. Fortunately, it is easiest to find light in total darkness. All be comes clear. Light is easy to see. And the truth is there is no external power that can dim your light unless you allow it.
In moments of trauma, pain or suffering it helpful to take a step back from the immediate, personal wound. My tendency is to take whatever action steps are necessary in order to come back to the depth within myself and feel connected to Source. From a deeper space of neutrality, observing underlying vibrations that cause pain becomes more manageable and it is easier to find healthy ways to perceive and grow from circumstances that cause fear and suffering. From a higher perspective, all wounds are symbolic in nature. Ascension comes from our ability to handle a shift in power. So how can you begin now to shift from a sense of loss, fear, hopelessness, fear, into a state of neutrality, peace, compassion, autonomy, clarity, and connection with Source?

I would ask you all to begin to shift your consciousness from a sphere of concern, and into a sphere of influence.

We are all lighthouses. We are stable. We are grounded. We are loving beings. We just simply forget from time to time. When we focus on the effect (material world, external, personalized here and now human dramas), the cause (Source light, spirit, magic, God energy) begins to diminish. Energy flows where attention flows. We must understand that to experience the life of joy, vitality and peace we crave, there must be continuos focus on the cause. It is law. This is what creates the open flow of Source light into the material plane as a channel. The system is rigged in Spirit's favor, you see. Come back to your depth and reconnect. This is where you can transform your life with the most power. You can channel fear into activism. You can transform your art into humanitarian declarations. You can be the hopeful beacon of light among those who cannot feel their own warmth. You can transform those around you through your very vibration. You can use your gifts and talents to heighten your sense of self and contribution. You can plant a garden, smile at strangers, open doors, and kick up your sense of service in all ways.

You can use this moment to evaluate your life. Let us not waste time on the superficial, the unimportant, the fluff that continues to keep you distracted from your mission. All of your energy is needed a thousand fold, and we must be mindful of energetic investment. What do you want from friendships? Are you receiving it? What needs to change there? What do you want from a home space? How can you create it? What do you want from a partner? Your work life? How do you want your daily life to feel? What are the most powerful conditions most efficiently conducive to your best self, in all ways, in all areas?
Get clear on this. Pain and darkness reminds us to get back to basics. Make your foundation strong. The pillar on which you stand should carry you to the highest of heights!
This is also a wonderful moment to reevaluate core, archetypal beliefs. You get to choose how you experience the world and through what filters data is downloaded. What are the cornerstones of your belief system? Is the world safe? Is the world good? Oh my, in every good story there is always a climactic moment where the villain seems to be winning; but faith, character, persistence, grit, and acts of love and grace always “trump” the villain.  It is the greatest test for the bravest souls, to find happiness and joy when all hope is lost. This is a game of mental yoga. And remember this earth world is but illusion and the darkness we see here is the collective dream of human mis-creation caused by a lack of remembrance that we are spirit in nature, and that we are inherently unbreakable. It is all growth experience, no matter how big or small, no matter if it is light or dark that touches you. Yes, there are younger souls on this planet who will take time to evolve. There are frequencies on this planet that are dying out and as they leave, they are kicking and screaming like children throwing tantrums. But trust that Gaia will always care for herself. She will regenerate. Chaos and collapse always leads to regeneration. Hold space for yourself, channel in higher frequencies of love, strength, resilience, and hope. 

Be the light bearer for those around you. This is your sphere of influence.

And just as it goes in your individual spiritual growth, we cannot change that which is unacknowledged. If you have a belief or wound that is still in the shadows, denied or resisted, you cannot begin to heal it. The same goes for collective evolution. The rise of dark energies is here for our transmutation and healing of it. Gaia is pushing to the surface that which is unsustainable, saying here, "Here it is. Humans, do you see this?" We must acknowledge where we are as a species in order to see where the most immediate and vital changes must take place.
This moment is a part of the process. This moment is a challenge for you to become stronger as you dig deeper. This moment is an opportunity for you to come into greater alignment with circumstances that serve your greatest self. Let us only tolerate harmony, our quantum blueprint, our highest selves. As you shift from fear, anger and rage, into neutrality, stillness, and peace, you will see how you can be a positive agent of change. You are the calm in the eye of the storm. You are the hope that sings in the street. You are the voice that stands up to violence. You are the power that does not fall into lower vibrations, for if you do, that which you seek to destroy will only grow larger. Release your attention to hate, to the media, to chaos, to what could happen. Focus on solutions while lending attention to that which enhances your vortex of creativity.
I am here with you. Thank you for incarnating. Thank you for listening. Thank you for being interested and vested in your spiritual evolution. Your power is in your sphere of influence and you are the solution. 

Who's The Boss? Real Talk On Personal Power.

I remember reading Carlos Castaneda in my teens. There was a concept he discussed as taught by Don Juan Matus, a “man of knowledge” and great shaman of the Toltec lineage, that really stood out to me as I was diving into esoteric and metaphysical study. I don’t remember the exact quote, nor the chapter or even which book it was I was reading, but this one idea was so powerful that now, all these years down the path of becoming, do I understand what he meant.

Don Juan taught that the most powerful shamans or sorcerers (one who is a channel for Source, as Wayne Dyer put it) need no props, no frills, no tricks, nothing. It is all within you. This was the message. I enjoyed studying everything growing up, and I still do. When I read this lesson, I was delving into comparative religion, magic, tarot, crystals, uses of sage, rituals, yoga, meditation, and working on my developing my psychic abilities and inner vision by testing myself with games. For example, instead of actually reading the questions on standardized tests in high school, I would simply look at my 4 bubble choices, and feel into which was the right answer. (And I did really, really well on that particular scantron test by the way.) I would tell my little brother to take ten cups and hide one pebble underneath them and I would have to know which cup had the object. I would meditate in front of the fireplace or go in our back yard and talk to all the swirling energy I saw around me. I called the energy I could see, “the dots” because my vision would shift and all matter would appear as pulsating, vibrating tiny little dots that looked something like atoms and molecules; as if a scene turned into tiny pixelated versions of itself.

I am in a place in my personal development where I am reflecting on this idea more so lately, as I deepen my work and practice and find myself in the midst of the powerfully emerging wellness scene here in New York City. Everybody has something to help you balance, align, awaken, understand, heal, feel, resolve, release, etc., myself included in that. The crystal light bed is an amazing tool for personal transformation. This shit is absolutely powerful and changed my life. Acupuncture is powerful, crystals, tarot, astrology, red tent ceremonies, theta healing, angel readings, cranial sacral sessions, etc,. All these practices, rituals and therapies are great tools to help you get to the place where you truly understand yourself. But they are just that: tools. I am seeing a whole lot of people in this community identifying with form, reaching for something externally that is going to cure them, and staying stuck in egoic identification with the "thing" or ritual itself, instead of using these tools for their intended purpose: access to the peace and clarity that comes from within you. 

The whole point is not the ritual, it is becoming a badass who knows what’s up and has no need for props or frills. The point is feeling safe because you know you are safe internally. 

For example, what is the dominant vibration behind your use of sage? Are you running around fearing that a terrible energy is out to get you? Or, do you enjoy how this herb in your space makes you feel? And by the way…sage does not clear negative spiritual energy. It thins the veil. We can learn to clear undesirable energy with our eyes closed in stillness, without a tool. There is ritual involved, process, working with multidimensional reality and powerful light sources.

We do not need anything outside of ourselves.

I do not need tarot to tell me what to do or what is happening in my life. This can be a powerful tool indeed, and can help you see your inner world when it’s hard to gain perspective. It is a divination tool to help you connect with the guides within. But, you can talk to guides from a certain brainwave state achieved in meditation. You don't need the tarot. You can astral project, meld with the energy of a plant, know if someone is thinking about you (in what context and when), or talk to a crystal or an animal from this same space. It all happens without anything but you and your highest self. I know what to do and how to move from feeling into the depths of my heart and soul, not a card that tells me what to do.  If I do not know what to do, that means the information isn’t in yet and I must be patient with divine timing. I do not make moves until I know what to do. If I were to do tarot reading for myself when I truly do not know what to do, I would have a reading reflecting my inner conflict, so the meaning would come from a story I created based on what I see and feel.

But guess what player: all meaning comes from a story you create based on what you see and how you feel. 

Perhaps the story would serve your purpose, and help you to move forward. And thus the tarot served as a tool. But you pull cards based on law of attraction. Now, there are many people who are working towards becoming one with their truth, and seeing it clearly. This is why tarot can be such a powerful divination system as it awakens people to know what they are actually vibrating and what may truly be in their hearts when they cannot see it for themselves. In this example with tarot, I do not mean to disregard the divination system or how it can be helpful to people. Tarot itself, is not my point. 

I only mean emphasize that you and your intuition together are more powerful than anything anyone tells you. It's not about the reader, or the pendulum, or the crystal. The point is the wisdom and vibration you want to gain from working with it.

I know, I used to be that girl obsessively checking my astrology reports: Vedic, Western, Destiny Cards, daily, monthly, hourly. I get it. I don’t need to do that all the time anymore.

I don't check what is going on out there because "out there" isn't affecting what's "in here" as much.

It's good to be aware of frequencies. It's even better to emit your own so strong that it just doesn't matter. I like to work with my astrologer, as a roadmap, biannually, for in depth check-ins. Beyond that, I just breath with my heart. 

I am down with my North Node position. But on a regular basis, I do not look to the stars or the cards, or to others. I look within myself. 

Unfortunately, what I see happening is a lot of control energy, wanting to know the future, escapism, and identification with form and we have to be careful with spiritual ritual and practice in this regard. Use discernment. Behavior and intention can turn to escapism, or surface practices without heart or soul, when we lose awareness of the underlying vibration and core intention around our wellness rituals. I see a lot of people who “do” all the right “practices” and have been for years, who are still ridden with frustration, anxiety, fear, conflict, anger, and more. Do not listen blindly to any sage, seer, or master. Just focus on your own shit, and go get it. Sometimes it's as simple as that. I take on, with humility, advice from those people I trust, with greater wisdom, more experience, or a unique perspective. But I take that advice into my own heart, sit with it and see what truth resonates for me personally.

Ultimately true knowing will come from within. There is no other way. 

I have a crystal staff. I used to use it in full moon rituals in Central Park. In my early 20s, I would very dramatically dress in all white, take my writings, intentions, poetry, drawing, my daughter, something with which to light written intentions on fire, and march out in the night and perform whatever I was intending and manifesting--and let’s be honest—who the fuck else was out in central park with a crystal staff at midnight on full moons ten years ago performing ritual and lighting things on fire? It was cool and fun and a silly magical thing I could do. But, I no longer use or really need my crystal staff, other than for decoration, because you must learn to speak to Source, to God, to the Universe with power and caliber from your heart, from wherever you are. It doesn’t matter what items you have or do not have. I love raven feathers and dream catchers. But I know I do not need them. I am not a huge fan of psychics readings that look too deep into the future for you, because this can turn into a form of control energy and can take away the process of one learning to make conscious, aligned decisions. I read the energy of a situation for my clients and help them identify dominant vibrations about people, relationships, context, or big decisions, but I deter these conversations from getting too deep and desperate about a future that has yet to be created or written in stone. There is great beauty and excitement in the mystery of it all unfolding. 

So, what about the moment where you reach a deep well of clarity within yourself? What about after the daily fear is gone? What about after you are free? I don’t mean to say that fear doesn’t creep up. It does and it will. I am totally cool with being human, with crying, with being exhausted and raw. I have a set process to deal with lower emotions and it’s healthy, cathartic and makes me feel safe and cared for. I get scared sometimes. I can push myself too hard and bite off more than I can chew. Sometimes I feel alone, just like everyone else. But in general and on a daily basis, I am not afraid. I know this to be true because I used to be afraid everyday. I know what daily fear and suffering is. I know it for good reason. But that good reason is false. I see that now. There comes a point where fear isn’t the topic anymore.

Clarity sets in.

Think about this idea: the most powerful people need nothing. I fully believe this with all my heart. Rich or poor, spiritual or not, ravens or physics: it comes from within. A purist can see through the external layers of fluff and into someone's soul. This is where you find magic. It is in the well of clarity that becomes alive and present, beyond the field of fear. This is G-Status living. But when I first heard the concept described by Don Juan, I was young and newly on my path. I didn’t get it. I do now.

I believe it is when you need nothing, that you attract everything. When you are at peace there are no needs.

We live in modern society and we all need help balancing. There is never enough time. I need 7 clones. I am exhausted. There is too much to do.  I still get on my crystal bed bimonthly because clearing my energy puts me in touch with myself, and I need all of my power to accomplish what I want to accomplish for myself and my daughter. I just want to emphasize that all these metaphysical, energetic, and wellness practices are the vehicles unto your becoming and authenticity.

These processes are a means to understand your unlimited power as a channel of Source, a co-creator here on the Earth plane, and a powerful human being.
Fuck the sage, this is about your power. Sheesh. Enough. 
I want to get to the core foundation of what makes a person powerful since everyone has a different definition. To me, powerful means you are at peace and are not afflicted by unresolved issues. An unresolved issue is anything that disturbs your peace. A powerful person is a master manifestor, meaning one who is able to co-create the dream of their life by easily attracting their heart’s desire. (This does not mean you are immune to life lessons or pain.) A powerful person is joyful and often laughs. It was the great visionary and French philosopher Pierre Teilhard De Chardin who said, “Joy is the infallible sign of the presence of God.” It’s true. I love that quote. A powerful person has a strong sense of self worth evident through behavior, lifestyle, and healthy boundaries. A powerful person knows themselves, the dark and the light, and accepts their unique nature while acting in total alignment with who they are.

It’s not about being perfect. It’s about authenticity. It’s about honesty.

A powerful person speaks to the soul and communicates truth. A powerful person is a purist and has vision. A powerful person makes people feel good by their very presence alone. They honor others because they honor themselves. The more we honor our gifts, our unique nature and ourselves, something very special starts to happen…
You Give. Less. Fucks. 
And there is a reason for that. There is no one else in the world that can know your very nature as deeply as you can know yourself. Not everyone is willing to take the journey within, to know themselves. There is no one else that knows how far you can go and what you are capable of. There is no one else who can access your pure potential. No one. Start to know yourself as, The Master. Masters do not need frills, tricks, or props. Masters use their minds to serve their heart and intuitive senses, to go forth and fearlessly create the dreams that make them happiest.

I would say to you, that all of these practices are a means to a state of clarity. Do not forget the point: You are the Master. What YOU say goes. What YOU know, is the truth. No one trusts themselves. Move beyond this state of lack. Why do you fear your own voice? Child of the Light, you get to choose where to go and how to move in this world. It truly is all within you. Just you, completely raw, naked, alone in the woods without any material objects, can conjure up anything at all that you might need.  This is not magic. This is law.

Personal power comes from within you.



P.S. It's fall. Time to get it together and come see me for a session. 

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The Power of Silence

I have not written a newsletter in some months, which is funny because writing is one of my favorite things to do. But my silence was not neglect, rather it was choice. My authentic makeup, is that of silent warrior, seer in the shadows, observer with a foot in both worlds. Oh just give me my cave and my cloak and let me be. Indeed, I now honor that inherent makeup and embrace it as an adult. I cannot be, authentically, anything else. I will tap dance through my soul's need for space, and my dedicated human callings, with as much balance as I can summon for the rest of my life. There is a time and a place to share and tell all, explaining the power and potency of one’s personal process. And yet there is a time and a place for intimacy, privacy, and silent growth. As many of you know, there are times when spirit shows you powerful things and it simply cannot be shared, else the energy and the power of the vision be muted. There are times when spirit shows you things that must be shared, lest the energy and power of the vision be muted. It is our job to be awake enough to discern the difference. Let us not forget, the power of silence. This is a state of inner rest. Silence cannot be broken. Silence cannot be manipulated. Silence cannot be limited. Silence contains all. This does not mean you forgo processing, expression or growth. It means you have the right to keep it to yourself when you feel that is the most inspired act. I invite you to develop a relationship with silence in the midst of a noisy, chaotic, egocentric, world. This is a world that screams in desperation. Your silence will lead the way to powerful communication; the kind of communication that speaks to the soul and transforms consciousness. At this point, this is the only type of communication that matters. Understand this.
What a powerful spring transition. We are growing so swiftly we can barely keep up with ourselves. So many have come into my office saying the same things. You are not alone in your pain, in your malady. You are not lost on your path. Do not be fooled into believing you are on a path estranged from your brothers and sisters. Your tears, your losses, your strengths and your heart’s hope are shared. Rest easy in this knowing. Nothing real can be threatened and nothing unreal truly exists. The way to successfully traverse the Earth plane is to understand that you are not of the Earth realm. Silence helps us remember the voice of God and break free of the illusion of human suffering and dramatics. I will tell you, however, I am finding many people spinning off their rockets. Often we become distracted with life and forget the importance of energetic self-care. We all get busy, but we must come back to spirituality. Without spirit we have no life force. Without strong energy we cannot accomplish anything in the material world. The physical body cannot exist without spirit. Without the understanding that we are primarily whole and perfect spiritual beings, we will begin to believe the illusion of the broken and pained earth self. Again, we can only draw personal power from spirit. You may feel that leaning on something is unnecessary, but the soul leans naturally. And if you are not leaning on Source, God, Spirit, you will find yourself inappropriately leaning on someone or something as a weak replacement, finding yourself confused and in error. Your process is all you. I am simply here at the doorway helping you prepare for entrance into divine reality, but ultimately your dealings with God are none of my business. It seems that people are so utterly terrified of silence, that there is a refusal to enter the doorway. You cannot know yourself if you are afraid of silence. You cannot experience rest, if you do not meditate. You exercise so that you can go out and accomplish what must be accomplished in the material place. You basque in silence to conquer limited perspective. Silence is the inner work. 
As a small child, I learned very quickly that the safest place to be myself and open to my magic, was through silence and meditation. This is where all the answers come. Often it is pain that pushes us into spiritual awakening because we must learn to bring consciousness to pain in order to release it to God. When you bring darkness to light, it diminishes. When you understand, and not intellectually, not from a book, not because you are regurgitating something you heard, when you understand through mastery in the emotional body, the expansive power of the infinite within you, the perceived pain of this life evaporates and you realize the silliness of that illusion and the smallness of your own ego to give it so much power. I understand my ego’s propensity for smallness, selfishness, lack mentality and silliness. I am human. It is my spiritual work to use ego it for its warnings and to also keep it in check. My ego is filled with nonsense. It takes practice, patience, mindfulness, silence and will on a daily basis to keep it in check. If you refuse silence, you refuse yourself. If you cannot sit down to meditate you will be lost. They always say, "It's too hard". Well, babe…Try harder. This is not some luxury for the elite. This is an integral aspect of living a healthy life. Silence helps you keep it real as a human in your human form. You fear your infinite self because this greater aspect will tell you where you need to make changes. And it is frightening to make major life changes, isn't it? It's uncomfortable. And here in the west we detest any and all discomfort and will do our damnedest to avoid it. I would invite you to accept discomfort as a part of the process, intentionally shifting your relationship to what you perceive as darkness until a pathway becomes clear. We can find acceptance in silence. We will always experience the upheaval of life but can cultivate skill sets that make those moments easier to move through with mastery. The challenge becomes a fly. Remember, there is no resurrection without crucification. There is no instant gratification when it comes to spiritual understanding. There is no opening without clearing. It may take some time and practice to reacquaint yourself with inner silence. We all, no matter how evolved we are, have to sit down in ritual stillness to hear the voice of God. Do you think Yeshua did not meditate because he was so evolved? Do you think the Dalai Llama does not meditate? This world is too noisy.  There is no judgment or shame around our inability to see the importance of silence. There simply needs to be more awareness around it. The asana aspect of yoga is not enough. Asana prepares the mind for meditation. Yoga is union with God. You do not know God if you do not know silence. You do not know silence if you do not know inner stillness. You do not know inner stillness if you are unacquainted with meditation. Silence is the answer. You can run around looking for external validation and meaning as much as you want but you will never find outside, the type of truth and peace that rests, already within you. You are not broken. And I am no healer. I do not need to heal you. You are perfect. I am a sorcerer. A "source"-erer is one who channels source light. I am a priestess aiding your path. With this light I can curate energies to resonate in alignment, so that you see your God-self within, you see that you need no healing, you see that you are already perfect. My goal is to help you feel the type of alignment that brings you closer to Source. I open the gate. You have to walk in. Be courageous, dear heart. Be strong enough to let it all fade and sit in silence with the cosmos. Let the illusion fade. Let your identification with this cool thing and that cool thing fade. Let your fear of insignificance fade. This trembling fear of insignificance keeps you on your knees and unconsciously desperate for validation and the desperate are easily manipulated. Rise. You are Kings and Queens. You need only remember. My job is to help you awaken. When you remember who you are, this world changes. And the only way our species will survive, if you awaken. Honor your silence. This is the way.

As always, I am here to work with you and help you along the path. If you have not booked a session in the last 4-6 weeks, you can do so by clicking the "Book Now" navigation tap on this website. I will be out of New York in late July and part of August so I recommending getting your summer sessions in now. Blessings dear ones.

With Love,


Want to know what mantra I am working with lately? It is called, the Mantra for Positivity: Ek Ong Kar Sat Gur Prasad. It is a very sacred and powerful mantra, and one of the few mantras given with a warning. You must be very careful and intentional with your thoughts after working with this chant because your manifestation abilities are so heightened. If you allow lower thoughts to bombard your person, you will see this manifested quite quickly. On the contrary if you use the sacred space post-meditation wisely, you will be calling in the hearts desire with great power. I enjoy meditating with this mantra, and immediately after writing in a journal called my Book of Positive Aspects. I write down in present tense, " I am" statements all the beautiful things for which I am grateful, and all the things I intend to call into my life. This mantra helps me prepare for this ritual manifestation technique. 

Energy + Beauty: Understanding the unseen captivation factor

“I think happiness is what makes you pretty. Period. Happy people are beautiful. They become like a mirror and they reflect that happiness.”


--Drew Barrymore.


By definition, beauty is something that is pleasing to the sensory systems or the mind, aesthetically. Simple enough, right? And yet, there is a deeper, more conscious context within which to discuss and analyze beauty. Have you ever walked into a party and felt the presence of one person who is lighting up the room, dazzling the crowd through words, gestures, and intrigue? She may or may not be stunningly gorgeous. Either way, people are drawn to her and so you will judge her through rose-colored glasses because of the way she makes people feel and the reaction she receives from the crowd. On the contrary, have you ever looked at a model that you acknowledge intellectually as attractive, yet you experience no real draw? They have all the right symmetrical features, that perfect body, and yet when you look in their eyes, you feel nothing, dead energy. There is no captivation factor. This person simply does not warm you. For example, I can’t tell you how many textbook “hot” guys I have absolutely no interest in. I am neither captivated nor attracted. The mojo is missing. And do you know what the difference is? Captivation and perception of beauty has everything to do with one’s capacity to emit frequency and to hold a denser field of photons in the energy that imbues and surrounds the physical body. In other words, beauty has to do with one’s ability to hold light, literally. Light is what draws. Light is what captures. Light is what heals. Light feels good. Light is beauty. It was the late, great Maya Angelou who said, “People will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.”

When we discuss aesthetics, we refer to what is pleasing to the senses and how we interpret what is beautiful. From my work as an energy healer using a crystal light bed to purify the multidimensional energy systems in order to reestablish my client’s connection with their inner glow and high-vibe, “sparkle factor”, while having a background in film and fashion, I know that the interpretation of what we find attractive has a much more holistic range than what is commonly discussed. Looking exclusively at someone’s physical appearance in judgment of attractiveness is like focusing on one color of the rainbow, when you feel the rich, expansive diversity of light from the entire spectrum of photons and the power of that full range is what magnetically draws you in. And yet you call that feeling “pink”, because your scope of awareness is limited. Usually, people aren’t fully conscious of why they are attracted to someone, or something. I believe it has everything to do with the relationship between energetic dynamics and the capacity for captivation, and how that relationship affects one’s physical appearance.

You see, darling doves, to give you a little foundational background: we are light beings. Humans are vast and powerful. Humans are multidimensional. When I say that, I mean that there are many dimensions of existence that make up the totality of who you are, beyond this physical understanding. We are made of matter, but behind all matter is an energetic component and the energy systems behind the physical body are beautiful, complex and connected to spirit. We learn that all matter has an energetic component in middle school science classes, but fail as adults to apply this idea to the human body. In fact, everything is energy. Energy is the substance that precedes all physical manifestations in this world. We are drawn to energy or we are repelled by energy. We discuss someone’s “vibe” without fully understanding that this concept refers to the rate at which one literally vibrates. And guess what? You can curate your vibration. This is your power. The higher your vibration the more light you hold in your field. And know this: what exists as vibrational patterns within you will be manifested into your external world physically. This is law of attraction 101. So, instead of focusing on the external component of a difficult situation, we must first learn to focus internally and balance the vibrations. Thereafter, continue to focus on healing the physical components. Often those who wish to loose weight are dealing with deeper, core energetic pattern associated with the need to protect oneself, and commonly an inability to let go of the past. They are heavy in their field, thus heavy in their bodies. Focusing on light and self-love must come first, or at least accompany the physical measures you take to loose weight. And so it is with beauty. If there is a blockage in your internal or external energy field often times we will see this in facial features, skin rashes, dark circles, puffiness, bloating, lack of radiance, skin blemishes and acne, weight loss, weight gain, tightness in the jaw, poor posture, or even hair loss. People who unconsciously slump their shoulders are energetically trying to protect their hearts. So you see, it really is amazing, and quite a new realization through my experiences with clients on the crystal bed, that sometimes after a session people will physically look younger, brighter and more relaxed. And to reiterate, the reason is that when we hold onto blockages in our energy, often times you see it physically. So the old saying goes: as above to below. This idea relates to my previous explanation that, and I will say it until I am blue in the face, behind all matter is en energetic component. I can literally tell in my friend’s facial features when it’s time for a good ole’ energy cleaning.

As a culture, we are progressively on the brink of understanding how emotions, vibrations, energy and frequency affect the mind and the body. When you learn to let go of your blockages on an energetic level, it frees up space within your vibrational field to align with the highest possible frequencies of light. As that alignment is reached your outer world will thus reflect your new, empowered state. You get closer to your natural essence, authenticity, and unique perfection. The physical follows suit to the energetic precedent. Perfection has nothing to do with external standards of symmetry and cultural idolization. Perfection has to do with your genuine alignment with spirit, with the universe, with source energy. When that most important, intimate and powerful relationship is attended to, first and foremost, all else falls into place and the people around you will respond to it. This is when beauty meets divinity. This is when beauty has consciousness and depth. This is where beauty captivates and heals. Hold your light, darling doves, and be beautifully you. All the power of the universes exist within you, as you learn to harness the full range of your creative capacity. When you do this, you glow. You shine, and your swagger becomes sacred. All we must learn to do is shine the light that we already are.


7 Tips for Holding Your Light Strong:


1.     Long Deep Breathing / Meditation

a.     This balances the parasympathetic and sympathetic nervous systems.

b.     Stimulates the pituitary gland.

c.      Pumps cerebrospinal fluid around the brain.

d.     Stimulates production in the brain to work against depression.

e.     Cleanses the blood of carbon dioxide increasing alkalinity.

f.      Releases blockages to flow of energy in meridians.

g.     Fights addiction.

2.     Authenticity

a.     When your words and actions match your feelings and intentions, you create vibrational patterns of peace and alignment in your energy and in the cellular structure of the water molecules in your body.

3.     Passion          

a.     People who work towards living their dreams tend to have more energy, because passion is a form of energy that will bathe all areas of your life. Passion is contagious and inspiring.

4.     Plant Forward Eating

a.     Plants have chi, prana or life force. When you eat plants you are digesting and soothing your system with the energy of the sun.

b.     More plants = More life force.

5.     Grounding & Shielding

a.     Every morning imagine there is a cord of light wrapped around your root chakra (a red spinning vortex of energy at the base of your spine) to Mother Earth’s core. This helps to ground your energy throughout the day so you are not unconsciously splashing your energy out into the cosmos. Fly high, but stay grounded.

b.     After your grounding visualization and morning meditation, it is wise to visualize a shield of protection around your energy to encourage auric strength. We are often taught to open up, but not to protect. This is very similar to carrying an umbrella when it is storming. This is practically based, not fear based.

c.      Shield Example: I imagine the strong facets of a beautiful quartz crystal locking in one by one around me. I call on the light to align with my vibration and visualize myself surrounding by the protection of a crystal. You can achieve the same protective affect by imagining light wrapping around you like a cocoon. Any color that feels good to you is the color that you need.

6.     Regular Energy Healing

a.     We are taught to take showers every day and do not remember to clean our energy. Find an energy healer that resonates with you or get with me on the crystal light bed to balance the chakras and remove any unwanted blockages vibrating in your energy field. Be the light! Shine bright!

7.     Sweating

a.     We all know that working out increases endorphin production stimulated healthy digestion, and releases toxins through the skin by sweat.

b.     Sweating is not about trying to achieve a desired physical state. Sweating is about feeling good.






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Often, as part of the awakening process, or really any process whereby you are gaining new information and forming a new life perspective, there is a tendency to look back on those who have not accessed the new information, unique to your soul journey, and unconsciously form judgments about them. This is not uncommon, and really nothing to hold shame about. It’s something to simply be aware of. I personally love it all. I love all perspectives and truly believe there is learning in everything. It’s about having the open vision to see those hidden nuggets of wisdom in all traditions, and in the poetry of everyday life. I love atheists. In fact, one of my clients is a very famous and powerful actor who believes in absolutely nothing, other than the potential of mankind. His words to me in our session were so absolutely inspiring. He said, “I’ve lived long enough to see peace in Ireland, the fall of the Berlin wall, and the end of apartheid in South Africa. I know many people fear the demise of the human race, but I believe wholeheartedly in humanity’s potential and what we are capable of as a collective people”. No, he didn’t believe in a God as you may describe, which may be different than a God that I may describe. The point is; he holds hope, when I know many very powerful, spiritual conductors of source energy who have lost it. So whose perspective is the “right” one? It doesn’t matter. It doesn’t matter if you are studying the law of attraction and someone else is studying the law of cause and affect. It makes no difference if you connect with a yogic path and your client connects with Christ. Christ-Consciousness, Buddha- Consciousness, Crystal-Consciousness, it’s all the same thing. Humans have a deep need to sort, label, identify and judge through the ego’s comfort and safety in intellectual control. But this matters not. I love atheists, Jews, Muslims, new-agers, Christians, Buddhists, classic philosophers, Norse mythologians, shamans, poets, witches, neuro-scientists, agnostics, lovers and haters and so on, and so on. Again, it matters not. I see humans. I see light. I see photons and love embodied in human physical forms, using their minds to understand. It’s all energy and you can use whatever form or channel feels most comfortable to you. And it’s all so utterly beautiful! Pray to whomever you like, be it Venus, light, God, Jesus, the Universe, Merlin, Yogananda, Quan Yin, a higher self, a quantum self, what Aristotle called the “Entelechy” (a soul’s pure potential), an Andromedian, Alchemist Master or whatever makes sense to you. Ultimately the path is your intuitive knowing, which is connected to the light. How you get to that joy, is your business. But please know this:
It is not what you believe, but being offended by what others believe, that causes violence on this planet. 
Anything that makes you feel good; is right. Anything that makes you feel safe; is right. Anything that causes you to connect to a higher aspect of your brain; is beautiful. There is no place for self-righteousness in your conscious growth.
Spirituality allows, it includes.
It includes the scum and the dirt and the noise. It includes the horrid, plastic media. It includes pain through compassion and acceptance. It includes your involved brother-in-law who makes belittling, narcissistic remarks to your mother mingled with misogynistic attitudes and insists on factory-farmed meat on holiday. Yes, even him. We must accept the other person at their particular level of consciousness. Not everyone will understand you. Many will judge you. I invite you love and accept them for where they are, in return. Everyone is at a different level. Does that mean you have to be best friends? No. Does that mean drop your healthy boundaries? Absolutely not. It means hold neutrality, love and acceptance. Spirituality just means being open to love. Love leaves resistance, the need to be right, the need to correct, and exclusion behind.
I have questioned everything through my growth and I truly believe that’s how I’ve come to the place of peace that I feel in my mind and heart at this moment in my life. Now, it is "downloads" and knowing. Now it is enacting the plan given to me from he light. Now it is bringing down those 5th dimensional, 6th, 7th…13th dimensional frequencies into this Earth plane. The work is not about simply transcending Earth drama to rise above it. You are here to implement new archetypes and understandings by holding those frequencies strong, despite Earth drama, while bringing them forth into the human world.  I believe it is healthy, grounded and wise to use discernment when taking in new information from anywhere, including me. If there is anything that doesn’t feel right to you, there is no need to take it on as truth. If it doesn’t resonate it means it either isn’t true, or you are not yet ready for that information at this point in your process. I ask that you not be offended by language, semantics, or any external labels that separate, while allowing others their divine process of human growth. Allow space for others to be offended, while knowing that it comes from a place of resistance, inner conflict and fear. Be the bigger person. There is no victory in being right, but there is everything to gain from humility. Humility comes from understanding your power. The heart of Source knows no control energy, no fight or flight, no rebellion, no hate, no judgment. The heart of Source knows pure, humble gratitude for this gift of human evolution. My friends, this heart, is your true heart. May you know it too.

Safe Seeking: The Art of Intuitive Discernment

Protect yourself and your energy through autonomy, empowerment, and discerning protocol. 

I would love to talk to you about some very important points not often mentioned in the high-vibe, spiritually seeking world of energetic understandings and it has to do with how we engage with energy across the veil. I guess it all started by seeing very sensitive and empathetic clients come into the work with my on the crystal light bed with very intense and deep attachments plugged into the electromagnetic field, causing extreme fear, disharmony and misalignment. Having a bit of foreign-body energetic debris is quite common due normal wear and tear of being a human, and working through the pain-body and shadow self. We all are opening up to higher frequencies of light. We all need a regular scrub down sometimes. In fact, its more rare to see clean energy than not, especially at this time. I want to offer some comfort here, that the past few months, from around Thanksgiving unto now, have been extremely trying for many people. As Earth moves into receiving more and more light, it’s as if not only Gaia, but also humans beings themselves are pushing out their darkness to be cleansed and transmuted through ego work and deeper self-reflection. It’s been intense and I hope you are all giving yourselves a break, being kind and practicing loving self-talk. With confusing sentiments, shifting energies, and lack of information can come doubt and a low-grade anxiety. For the spiritually seeking, the answer might be to spend more time in meditation, prayer, study and working with higher energy.
We are taught to open up, but not necessarily how to protect. 
I know that my work is energetic, spiritual and metaphysical. It would seem that I am for lack of better words, "out there, man". However, believe it or not I am a bit of a pragmatist. I am direct. And I am interested in energetic efficiency and being a high functioning human being to make the world a better place. That goal, lead me to my work. To me, it makes absolutely no sense to go playing in the realms without a grounded sense of discernment, auric strength and a goal that is of value to your human life in the here and now. Going into prayer or meditation without shielding your energy is like walking about the door without an umbrella in a rainstorm. Is taking the umbrella a fear based decision? Absolutely not. It is practical and efficient. I encourage all of my clients to develop their own direct link to source energy. You are your own guru. However, please do so with knowledge and safety. Unwanted external sourcings of energy can enter through cuts and holes in a person’s electromagnetic field, called energetic openings. These openings are essentially caused by weak emotions and loss of personal power and can be temporary or permanent. Temporary ruptures may be caused by traumas, stress, drug or alcohol abuse (and yes marijuana is included in that), or anytime you give your personal power away to another person or cause. Permanent holes are caused by deeper wounds of soul loss or fragmentation. To be frank, most people are walking about with weakened electromagnetic fields (auras) containing many cuts and holes, and then to top it off do not even think about carrying an umbrella while accessing multi-dimensional reality. This can be disastrous.
That being said, here are a few tips for Safe Seeking:

  1. DO. NOT. CHANNEL. – Under no circumstance do I condone this type of communication. Do you let strangers drive your car? Your physical body, your energy, your space is yours. Holding this space for yourself is your power. There are many teachers and guides who promote channeling; I do not, after years of experience with it in my early 20s. I would say 20 years ago, even 10 years ago it was safer to connect with higher guides through this method. However at this time it is unwise. You can use claircognizance, clairvoyance, clairempathy (if it is not too disruptive to your physical body) or any of the clair-senses to communicate without allowing another energy to take up residence within your field.
  2. CLOSE THE GAPS: Would you leave your house unlocked with all the doors opened overnight with the lights on and grandmothers jewels sitting on the hearth? As mentioned above, weak thinking, lower emotions and loss of personal power for prolonged periods cause a weakening of the field. I know, you're rolling your eyes. Yeah, yeah, yeah thoughts create your reality I get it, but... No. You don't get it, not yet. We are all still learning. If you got it, you wouldn't be coming to see me. Depressive mental attitudes are a luxury of the past. We can no longer afford to believe in our own disempowerment or we become subject to energetic malady and physical disfunction. Those of you with an emotional immune system know exactly what I am talking about. Yes, process and feel, but don’t stay there. Indulgence is not required to process. If you feel exhausted and beaten down, stop playing the old stories over and over. I caught myself doing this just the other day. The human mind will play whatever programming it is fed. You are the computer as well as the programmer. Focus on the here and now. De-clutter. Slowly and deliberately clean your room. Get to the gym. Watch a comedy show. Don’t worry about going higher. Just stop going lower because this will cause those openings in the field. Get with me on the crystal bed to repair ruptures or extract foreign energy bodies. If you have a feeling here is a tear in your field, disengage from all esoteric work, meditation, prayer etc. Let good thoughts be your prayer. Let organization be your meditation. Let physical movement be your spiritual work. Come back to being a human.
  3. GET GROUNDED: I am of the opinion that spiritual work means nothing if you are not grounded. What good is it to fly so high above the clouds you cannot connect to your Earth life or help others through Earthly issues? You’ve heard me say it in session. You’ve heard me say it in meditation: activate your grounding cord. We all have one, and to ignite it, simply bring awareness to it. Mentally connect an energetic, golden cord of light (about as thick as a rope) from your tail bone directly to Earth’s core, every morning and come back to this visualization throughout the day. Another option would be to place your non-dominant hand on the trunk of a tree with your dominant hand over the heart. Allow the grounding energy of the trees work with your energy. If it’s warm enough in your part of the country to have bear feet, this will only strengthen the connection.
  4. SHEILD YOUR ENERGY: You can call on any energy, light, Gods, Goddesses, masters, guides, angels, Buddha-consciousness, Christ-consciousness, Source-consciousness, any consciousness at all that you feel personally comfortable with. Oh people get so easily offended by semantics. You take it all too literally! You use personification in your spiritual practice! I believe in all of it and none of it. Do what works for you; ultimately it is all light and energy. Ask Joy to wrap you up. I don’t care what or who you call on, so long as it feels warm, safe, nurturing, protective. Ask your guides or team on the other side to cocoon you in a protective shield of light every morning. I like to use the visualization of my beautifully cut crystal closing each facet around my field as if I am guarded in crystal armor.
  5. CLOSE THE DOOR: When you are done with the tarot, the meditation, prayer, chanting, runes, pranayama, yoga, etc., close the door to the spiritual world. You can use the visualization of literally closing a door to the upper ethers. Or perhaps use a neon light sign that says either open, or closed. I like that one. I use this neon, Austin 1970's flickering motel light. Get creative with your visuals! It's fun. Remember to use the “Closed” sign after every session across the veil.
  6. DISCERNMENT: Anytime you come across an energy that feels uncomfortable, pushy, loud, heavy, dark, cease all spiritual activity immediately. Take salt baths and get back to basics for several weeks until you again feel aligned and comfortable. You can always contact me for help in these types of matters. I always offer the deeper metaphysical material to those of you who are esoterically inclined. It can be the damn Wild West out there and I'm you're cowgirl. K?

My main point is that we stay grounded in the here and now through all of this. If you are someone who is connected all through out the day, make sure you have a level of spiritual maturity keen enough to maintain strength through that continued connection. Sensitivity, ability, psychic power doesn't mean much without practical application. Make sure you have a genuine reason that helps you or another person. I don’t even stay connected all day when I am not working. I have learned to have very specific “on” and “off” times. I have even trained myself to forget most of my sessions so I do not carry around the memory of specifics from my clients. If you are staying connected all the time, I would invite you to ask yourself why. Make sure there is no spiritual by-pass, (using spiritual practices or ideas as an excuse to avoid dealing with your issues) associated with your spiritual  time, or that you are not getting “high” off spiritual energy and that your ego didn't sneak in any dissociative denial tactics or justifications.
It is my wish that this information serves you well. As always stay true. Remember authenticity is the new enlightenment. Honesty, kindness, joy, and goodness is all you need to focus upon.



I cannot begin to describe the deep phase of healing we have been traversing collectively; as a human whole intertwined with the plant and animal kingdoms, and with what we have seen in our inner worlds in the past several months. Look at yourself at the beginning of August and look at yourself now. Can you see and feel the differences and shifting energies? Yes, I know. Sometimes there is pain and suffering associated with such growth. This is true. And there is no quick fix. There are tools to aid your vibration, helping you to align with source energy. But, ultimately to stay in that state of peace requires work on your part. Your healing has to do with your ability to transcend the limits of the 3 dimensional Earth plane, and vibrate unto a higher, expansive awareness. Up there, is where you see truth and it is easier to understand what is and what isn’t from that spiritual vantage point. And in this moment of vastly shifting energies, where we are growing up and out of our old selves, I want to discuss the idea of the “enemy”.
You know those people who are always fighting? Perhaps it’s a young woman just out of an emotionally abusive relationship incessantly and automatically reacting with combative, unrelenting stances, vigilantly defending herself. She sees it as an empowering “take-no-shit” attitude but it comes off as angry, because anger and fear of vulnerability is what lies beneath the false empowerment. She is still fighting her past abuser, without the self-awareness that she is projecting her unresolved pain onto everyone else. Or perhaps it is the overly righteous vegan, slamming everyone with violent messages of death and slaughter because they have seen their light and cannot understand why everyone else cannot see light in the way that they do. This quest is guised in balance and progress, but underneath it all is self-loathing for who that person used to be, and a deeply hidden lack of compassion for themselves and others. And so, all they see in the world is lack of compassion as an outward projection of their unresolved issues. Maybe it’s the young woman who has been sexually violated, and fights for the rights of women and children and in her path, becomes bitter, resentful and hateful towards all men. Now, all of these people have a right to seek justice. All of these cases warrant attention and healing. And there is nothing wrong with empowerment, teaching compassion, or uplifting others. I am all for it. I love it! And yet, I tend to see people who are meaning well, fall subject to the same energies of darkness they are trying to avoid. Instead of leading by example and focusing on their individual enlightenment, they attack externally, which places them on the opposing end of the dark energy they seek to destroy. And do you know why?

Attack energy in any form, for any cause, just or unjust is dark and spiritually insane. So very often, underneath the valiant quest to fight all the bad guys, is one very dark energy: REVENGE.

Some of us do not even realize that we are driven by revenge.
“Oh yeah, I’ll show you!” and off you go. You build a company. You start a project. You fundraise a campaign. You write your script. But you encounter obstacles and difficulties and it doesn’t go as smoothly and easily as Abraham Hicks says it will. Of course, building anything epic has its hurdles. But when you begin to create from a vibrational point of attraction that harbors revenge and that thread of energy stays with you, you will not win. Often times there is an unconscious commitment to revenge (For more information on unconscious commitments, see previous blog post dated September 25, 2015). This unconscious commitment may be forming an alliance to darkness that is keeping you bound to heaving life circumstances and a roller coaster of flow and poor luck. You are not creating from love, but from darkness. You do not attract your heart’s desires, a sense of fulfillment, perfect job, money and love from attacking what you do not want or being angry at the fact that you don’t have it. Ideally, you pay no attention to the vibrations you do not desire and easily settle into to the vibrations of goodness, gently floating into that which you DO want. It’s like choosing the battle of swimming upstream and calling your self a warrior fighting the good fight, or easily flowing downstream paying no attention to the battle. That river leads to an ocean of fulfillment.
You may be thinking, “But how can you just ignore all the injustice of the world and go about your business?” And to that I would say there is no amount of suffering, anger or negativity that can in any way transmute a tragedy. None. This is not the way to uplift. Only pure love can do this. You serve those stricken with darkness only when you are in alignment with love and source energy. In this state, only good things come to you and come out of you. Your creations and ideas then, come from divine inspiration. All of these cases of justly angered people I’ve previously described, are looking for an enemy outside themselves because they are holding onto anger and revenge. They are seeking to change what they cannot control. And it’s futile. They will continue to see injustice outwardly until they can look upon their enemies with love, and trust that ignorance has it’s place in the evolution of humanity. It is control energy, to be angry at others for not understanding what you now understand. The Illuminati, religious extremists, your parents, your jailor, your ex-spouse, ISIS, perpetrators, evil aliens or anyone else you perceive as having hurt you or caused you to suffer through abuse and violence—all of them were and are attracted to you to highlight an unresolved false belief vibrating in your field creating an unresolved alliance with darkness. That doesn’t mean that bad things happening is always your fault. The child who is born into an abusive household had a soul contract to subject themselves to denser, lower vibrations to learn some of the hardest lessons a human can learn. Usually, the first lessons from harsher life circumstances is about shifting your vibrational state from victimhood to empowerment. But even more important, the giant, hit you in the face spiritual reality of a lesson that comes after the empowerment stage, is forgiveness, acceptance and love to those who have harmed us. The higher lesson becomes about letting go of revenge and putting down the sword. Usually those subject to harsher conditions have the power to reach the highest capacities of love, if they so choose the spiritual path. At a certain point and despite our chosen life circumstances, we choose whether or not we want to express our vocation to the world through anger, attack and fear, or love, compassion and grace. Source energy, the part of you that is the ALL-THAT-IS, knows no anger, revenge, attack, hate, bitterness etc. When you are aligned with Source, you do not experience these base virtues, nor do you attract them. It is impossible. Darkness serves as our teacher in order for us to become more loving and balanced. Some of you may experience resistance to that statement. But I promise you on my life, that it is true. When something undesirable occurs in your world, I would invite you to ask, “Hmm, why did I attract this?” as opposed to “why did this happen to me?” I have more experience with darkness and the human condition that I’d like to admit as a healer (lol), and yet it’s the very reason I do what I do. I am a powerful healer because I understand darkness as much as I do light. And because of my work, I’ve have had to study duality intimately, as it manifests through humans and in the metaphysical world affecting the globe as well as individuals in the lower 4th dimensions of the astral plane. We must all understand fully this one concept, to move towards healing:

Divine love is the only way out of the hell you see around you. 

It is impossible to change the world by looking outside of yourself. In fact, not only is it impossible; it is arrogant and irrational. You must start within. And if there is darkness vibrating within you somewhere, even if deeply unconscious, I would say to you, sit down to tea with your demons and ask yourself some very difficult questions. What would you do to the men who rape women? Would you fight them and murder them in cold blood, with the same energies they are using to inflict violence? When I first asked myself this question my awnser was dark until I meditated with this idea for several days. What would you do to all the Big-Agra-Big-Wigs poisoning our food and our children’s food to keep us sick and make more money? Would you line them up and poison them in vengeance? Would you choose revenge as a reaction to violence? Whether or not we are comfortable with our answers, revenge is darkness. Would you rather die a peaceful angel or live as a dark rebel?
The darkness you experience outside of yourself serves to simply highlight the darkness within you. And the consciousness we bring to the process of understanding contrast and the experience of duality, is ultimately our freedom. The more comfortable you are, with all aspects of yourself, the less anything outside you is a bother. People don’t bother you. Traffic doesn’t bother you. Bad luck doesn’t bother you. The homeless man shitting on the subway doesn’t bother you. In fact, you will bloom into a lotus of compassion, strong enough to absorb violent energies around you because you exist in a vortex of love. Darkness simply dissolves in the wake of what is holy. Choose to be holy. Love all for where they are. It is only our belief that darkness has great power, that causes it to maintain its hold over our lives. 

Thinking about, talking about, and attacking that which you do not want only aligns you further into the energy of the undesired. 

You cannot change anyone. You cannot have compassion for violent people unless you fully accept yourself. Before you can deal with anyone else without facade and masks, you must understand that the enemy is within. And know that your highest evolution is that of a being who is loving, and relentlessly compassionate towards all life, no matter how un-evolved the other person appears to be in this growth game we call Earth life. Sometimes our greatest soul mates, are playing roles as our enemies, so that we may rise above the illusion of circumstance. We must spread peace by being peace. We must create loving energy by aligning with spiritual energy. And it gives all the more meaning, from a vibrational perspective, to the phrase, “Love Thine Enemy”. Let us live this reality.
With Relentless Compassion and Love,

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Cicero & The 5th Chakra

Image from IG @Elyxium_

Image from IG @Elyxium_

Having a huge influence on the formation of the Latin language itself, Cicero was one of the greatest orators, consuls, politicians, and philosophers, (among many other credentials), of all time. Many of his writings inspire me today and I bring up the great Marcus Tullius Cicero, because his ability to inspire, move and persuade the greatest minds in power, his ability to communicate higher ideals, is linked to his relationship with the 5th chakra. I like to pretend that his essence was guiding me through a moment in time.


Allow me to back track.


I was at a large festival in Texas with my family some years ago and saw a beautiful booth with the most intricate crystal jewelry and designs. It was high quality stuff. Amidst the crowds, people shoving around, the smells of fried everything and chaos, my vision zoned in on one particular crystal and I could not see anything else around me. My skin chilled as waves of tingling sensations bathed my body. This is usually what happens when a higher version of myself wants me to pay attention to something important: hyper-focus, tunnel vision, chills everywhere, otherworldly instinct.  And so I walked over to the designer, who was an eccentrically charismatic, gypsy-esque, Brooklyn-based, Romanian chap in his mid forties with a jovial half smile and stocky build. We began to chat about his work. I had my eye on one piece. It was a crystal ring with an opulent, ornate setting; royally bombastic with just enough pretention to make a statement without slapping you in the face. It was old world, yet wearable. It was just right. I absolutely loved it. The crystal in the center was the color of a lost lake, untouched. It was the clearest light blue, but imbuing a milky quality that I found soothing and solid, like a rock that was a star at the same time. It glistened with powdery softness. For any of you who have an affinity for crystals you know exactly what I am talking about. The thing wanted me to wear it. The ring would have no other and I could hear it gently breathing my name with the novelty and excitement of a new, summertime lover. I had to come up with a damn good excuse, justifying my cause for purchase to the rational part of my brain that rarely allowed for such self-indulgence. The chap dealing crystals would pack up his cart and be gone before the day was through. But I wanted more information…to justify my cause, of course. I pressed him for info. What type of crystal is this? Where did you get it? Who is your source? How was it harvested? Was the stone machine cut? Where was this process done? Has it been cleaned? Yeah, are your rocks clean? No, no, no… I mean energetically cleaned! What do you mean you don’t know what I mean? Energetically. Cleaned…And what is your spirit animal’s social security number?


It makes me chuckle, now. He really didn’t know or care. Nor did he understand that he was dealing with an intense crystal healer. He was the designer, owner and operator of this enterprise and he would answer my questions for God’s sake. I waited around his booth while big haired, bleached-blonde, leopard-skin wearing, oil tycoon wives, with lipstick brighter than their Texas-sized presences, interrupted my interrogation. Well, they actually had money to buy his fine pieces. So, I waited. And after flirting with a few of these flamboyant, cash-carrying characters, he finally remembered the name. He said it so casually, after waiting for this one piece of information, and I saw the words seep through his nonchalant lips in slow motion like liquid ink.


“Ohhhhhhh, I thiiiiiiink I reeeeeemeeeeeembeeeeeeer…. It’s bluuuuuuuue chalcedoooooonyyyyyyy,” he said.


Blue Chalcedony.


“Fantastic!” I said, and ran off into a corner. He looked puzzled but I really didn’t care. Estranging myself from the festivities of the day I started to research what vibrations and healing qualities the crystal offered so I could compare these benefits with what may need healing in my personal life. And this is what I learned.


Blue chalcedony is the metaphysical stone of the 5th chakra.




It is said Cicero used to wear this stone around his neck before giving great speeches and orations in the senate.




Can you see my eyes right now as you’re reading this page, bugging out and exploding the surprise of my soul through the screen on your iPhones and tablets? I wish I had a dirty martini in that moment so I could spew it out dramatically with ferocious, soap opera, shock. Maybe some fine cowboy would come over and ask if everything was alright after my hypothetical cocktail exploded. I would unapologetically slap him after proceeding to call me “ma’am” even though I was only 27. I would turn to him with pale-faced intensity and wild green eyes, whispering like an arrow, “It’s Cicero’s stone, you fool…” and walk away, oh so slowly. Obviously, the “Old West Song” from The Good, The Bad, and The Ugly would be playing in the background.


End scene.


I personally have a connection to Cicero, as well as St. Augustine (side note*** a lot of Cicero’s work was built upon his study of St. Augustine). I mean, the man used this particular crystal as an amulet to enhance his ability to communicate with power. He consciously cleared the chakra vortex in his throat, attuning himself to the highest energies in the best way he knew how. And he had great influence. And there was something, some guide or higher aspect of myself, wanting me to work with healing the 5th chakra. I was guided to wear this stone, to keep it with me, to work with the colors and corresponding vibrations. How exciting! This is incredible. Cicero… I was going to wear what Cicero wore. I felt special. I would wear it proudly. Perhaps I was a fine orator in a past life. Surely, the rational part of myself would want me to wear Cicero’s amulet -stone despite the price. Perfect excuse. Yes this is what---


And then the chills came again. I was silenced.


The thought, “Your Voice”, became the dominant idea in my mind. My voice. I immediately thought of the idea of opening up and I could feel my physical body start to curdle into itself like rouge, cottage cheese, physically disgusted from the idea of too much exposure, knowing that exposure is part of connecting to my powerful, inner voice. I’ve spent a lifetime protecting it like a half-starved mother bear in a land taken over by hunters. I’ve build armor over the most sensitive touch-spots of my soul. It’s helped me survive. It’s kept me safe and I was not ready to part with this fool-proof protection I’d created. Protection had been my best friend. There was so much in that thought, “Your Voice” and how far away I was from it’s full potential. My throat closed up and I was a rabbit caught in a trap looking around for a hole in the ground. I felt so much emotion at once. My voice. Myself. My being. My wounds. My insights. My story. My genius. My ability. My passion. My struggle. My pain. Speak. Speak. Speak. No. No. No. I listen. Isn’t that enough? Speakers must listen, right? Everyone speaks. Everyone yells. There is too much noise in this world. Let me be a listener. But I realized, in that moment, that this awesome, stupid, stone marked the beginning of a terrifying journey to heal the deepest wounds of my life. Those wounds affected the most sensitive and powerful energy center in my body (unique to me—everyone has different strengths), and thus the quality of every aspect of my life. I felt naked at that festival in that moment, amid all those realizations, communications and imaginative, wild west fantasies.


I busted myself. But I did buy the ring.


I delved into what it means to heal the 5th chakra and began to accept the full realization is that I am a 5th chakra healer.


But I was hiding. And I still am, to some degree. I have so much growth to work through in this area and I am not ashamed to say that. I am not so arrogant. And recently, in my work and practice, in what comes up for clients (which always leads to further introspection), I began to see that the 5th chakra needs to be addressed; mine and yours. We will do this together. 



“Kalisa”, you might be thinking, “all this jive and you still haven’t told us WTF a 5th chakra is, or what a 5th chakra healer is!”


The 5th chakra: Something people love to shut down when afraid, especially women. Something that sets you free. A place within you that holds your truth and stories.  An expression of your divine self. A never-ending pool of imaginative craft so deep that the other end is a lagoon in Andromeda, whose channels connect you to everyone and everything else in the universe.  A healer’s tool. The perfect shade of cool, electric, blue. Power. Protection. A sharp knife you can turn on yourself, turn on others, or use to sculpt cedar. Safety. Intimacy. Integrity. Understanding. Both speaking up and choosing silence. Truth. Truth. Truth. That’s what it is.


But really, technically, clinically, it is a spinning vortex located in the throat area of your internal energy system that governs expression and communication. It’s the 5th main chakra, up from the root at the spine. It’s one of the major 7 of the 189 total chakras. It’s a big one. And you see, right now, is a time when being of integrity to your higher purpose is of utmost importance. It is impossible to live that higher purpose without the ability to speak up for yourself, speak through to yourself, or silence into yourself. We mustn’t forget that silence, is it’s own form of communication. Power does not always have to be loud. There is a time and place for it all.


Sometimes I feel like the full manifestation of my voice and my potential is this unlimited, powerful scope of multifaceted artistry and mysticism, organically coming together through dancing channels and collaborations. And it’s beautiful and I can see it and I can feel it. It’s beyond me. It’s something orchestrated by a higher divinity, something much more powerful than I. I am humble, bowing to this orchestration. But this cosmos of higher expression lies on the other side of a forceful river that is as much of a personal shield, as it is a personal limitation. It’s a dark storm to wade through. But I am in it. I am swimming in it. I created it. I can traverse it. It’s really fucking frightening and makes my body want to hide in fetal position under my covers holding my chest from collapsing. But, I’ve found there is incredible power in traversing this river, even when your heart is a glass slipper. There is freedom in it’s unlocking.  Healing the 5th chakra is the ultimate acceptance of self.


When I was a young girl, maybe 22, I was told by a world famous psychic and intuitive that I was a 5th chakra healer. She was an older, lovely British woman. The kind you want to sit and have tea with every day at 4pm sharp because she knows every story and everything in the world and speaks about atrocity, light and dark with such grace and love that no matter what is happening, you know it’s going to be okay. She was and is experienced, wise, and I wanted her to bake me crumpets in her cottage after she returned from farmer Dewey’s butcher shop (and yes farmer Dewy was a real person in her small town outside London). She works with celebrities and royalty around the world, she is a published author and sought after speaker, she travels giving lectures and workshops. I was in trouble when I saw her. And I needed to speak with her at that time. At this point, she was the 2nd successful intuitive who told me I was a healer. As soon as I walked in and sat down she said, “Firstly, I want to say to you, child, for you are a child, that you are a healer. (pause) A gifted healer (pause—looking me square in the eyes). You can do what I do. And you should do. People will need you. You’re a 5th chakra healer; it comes through the voice with you. There are people in this world who will be jealous of you, who will try to stop someone like you from realizing this gift. But you will do this. You will make it through. It’s sort of like playing piano. Some people are musically gifted. And of those few, some will be lucky enough to afford lessons. And of those few, some will have a piano in the home where they can practice. Some of those will get scholarships to musical programs because they are so good and so encouraged. Some of those graduates will be so talented that they will become maestros and concert pianists. The healer, is the concert pianist. I am so utterly surprised that you are not using this gift.” I will never forget the tone of her voice and how it made me feel. I will never forget the way she said, “utterly”. That voice still echoes like loving waves bathing random moments, still today. I heard it silently in my mind over the course of the coming years, when I was going through what I like to call “Personal Hell Phase 3”(but that’s another story). She told me so much more than that, about my artistry and need to express my creativity, about my gifts, politics and her predictions in terms of wartime tensions, she spoke to me about love. Oh, we discussed a great many things. Some of them may be true. Some of them might not. I am not big into predictive intuition because we can change the course like a sailor perking up at a new wind. But I needed that bit of wisdom prior to one of the deepest and most challenging journeys of my life. I will say one thing about truth: it sticks with you. If it resonates, if it gives you the chills, if it echoes, then pay attention. That means it is real for you.


I remember the frequency in her tone. I remember knowing her soul, because I could understand things about her from the tone of her voice. I remember the exact phrasing that she used. I remember the pauses. There was energy behind breath and inflection. I understood the intention behind it all. I could listen, and read the energy of her voice as she was working with me. And do you know why I remember? It’s because I am a 5th chakra healer. And the 5th chakra is closely related to the sense of hearing. To speak with wisdom, one must be able to listen. Reading tonality is one of the methods I use when I am working with clients on the crystal bed.


To give you a little more context, the 5th chakra is the first of the upper, spiritual energy centers in the body. Being aligned with this center is to speak, listen and express yourself as a higher form of communication. It is being in tune with spiritual expression. Ether, spirit and the hearing senses correspond to this energy center. So, those who have a higher ability with this chakra have sensitivities connected with hearing, speaking, writing, acting, and any type of communication. They may be musically gifted as well, as a keen ear is required to play music, to sing. This energy center is connected to the thyroid and parathyroid. It is responsible for healthy functioning of the throat, larynx, mouth, ears, nose, teeth and trachea. When it is blocked we might become silent, or at the other extreme, ramble on like a thoughtless jackass who speaks much, but says nothing. We might start lying or gossiping, developing unhealthy communication, perhaps even overeating, binge drinking or using drugs to avoid the pain of speaking from the blocked chakra. Ultimately this neurosis is about avoiding the pain of the wound, not the addiction itself. You might develop hypothyroidism, chronic fatigue, jaw pain, headaches, cold sores, laryngitis, a hoarse voice, autoimmune dysfunction and the like when this energy center is out of balance. When in balance, we are tapped into psychic senses, especially clairaudience. We hear between the lines. We are able to listen actively and respond with thought, emotional intelligence and wisdom. When the 5th chakra is balanced we become more than dreamers. We are channels for the mystical landscapes of our dreams, into the Earth world. We become bringers of beauty.


So how do we heal the damn thing? It’s not so simple as 1,2,3. It’s about planting a seed of awareness that becomes a lifelong dance with your integrity, voice and power. But I will list out things that I know help, and describe what I mean. Many of you, like myself, area dealing with a lifetime of shit piles on top of your truth. You don’t even fully know, what you don’t know. But there are small things we can do in our daily lives to strengthen this energy center, just like an athlete lifts weights every day to stay conditioned.



Say yes when you mean yes. Say no when you mean no. I am an introvert. I get physically exhausted from doing energy work, and from being around too many people. I need a lot of down time. That is where I recharge. I hibernate in winter and I am all out, in the spring and summer. I operate in cycles and I don’t fight it anymore. The thing is, I tend to attract very extroverted friends that like to get into all sorts of fantastical nonsense and fun. And I love them. And I like nonsense and fun sometimes too, but not all the time. I like journals, poetry and trippy, instrumental music. But I used to lie and make up small excuses for reasons I didn’t want to hang out because I didn’t think that, simply being me and needing to be alone, was enough of a justified reason to say no. Oh man, I’d say, I wish I could but I have to wrangle up these 14 lost bunnies that I found on the side of the road in Mendocino, and gosh, finding them homes its going to take me all night. Maybe months. I have to crochet little jackets for them too, because these are special bunnies who speak in sign language and luckily, I speak sign language. So, I was able to understand that they were cold. In fact, I have to learn how to crochet. I’m headed to the yarn store now, with these cosmic, smart-bunnies. Sorry. Next time! Ya’ll have fun… When I was young I hated Chuck E Cheese. My friends loved it. I thought it was plastic and creepy and weird and those robots playing music were unnaturally looking at me and not looking at me at the same time. And the chaotic energy of random, sugar-highed, kids made me physically ill. I froze up in places like Chuck E Cheese. It was too much. When I would have friends over and they would ask if my mom would take us there I would lie and say that she was working and she couldn’t. Not a far stretch from the norm, and of course at the time, I didn’t have the understanding or language to say I am a sensitive, empath and can’t stand the energy that God forsaken, plastic kingdom of mayhem… Now, when someone asks me to do something, I say yes. That sounds good. Or I say no, I can’t make plans that day. I am unavailable and need to relax. I cannot join you because I don’t want to. Being honest and direct is the best way to be nice. Or maybe it’s a big one. Maybe you are a woman terrified of getting physically close to anyone in a romantic sense, because you’ve been raped. You don’t talk about it to anyone. You buried it 10 years ago. You do not go to therapy because that would mean acknowledging that something bad happened. But you are secretly tortured, thinking that you are the type of person who secretly deserves bad things. You don’t want to be damned and if you acknowledge this fact, then maybe more bad things will happen. So you bury it. And it wells up in your heart, throat, and body, giving you sleepless nights and panic around potential dates. These, you see, these are 5th chakra falsities. Self-delusion. Lies. Do you see where I am going with this? Big Truth. Little Truth. Not speaking truths, cause problems. Everywhere. From physical ailments to relationships to addictions.

2.     SING.

a.     Human have been dancing and singing since the dawn of time, through housework, war, slavery, and plagues. It’s natural. It’s meditative. It is exercise for the voice and the throat and the heart center. Singing connects you to source and your physical body at the same time. It’s practice. It doesn’t matter if you have a shitty voice or an awesome voice. Just sing. It’s healthy. My sister notoriously had this god awful singing voice that rang like a crushed bell covered by a pile of dying ravens. (Sorry, Eve. I do love you). But she trained in yoga and started chanting and singing more through her practice, and with time balanced that chakra and the corresponding vibrations. Her voice literally sounded more pleasant after working with it. When I was a little girl, I was just plain scared. I was hiding, even then. But I would sing. I would hum, in a natural state of joy. But very soon in life I became aware that people might be watching and then I would only sing total privacy. I went to an Episcopal elementary school where we attended church on Wednesday mornings. We had to sing hymns. I would sing softly so no one would hear me. I would sing softly because I didn’t want to be seen and I knew my voice was different from the other children. If I sang out people would notice my voice was different. They would look at me. I didn’t want the attention so I sang in cracked softness. But sometimes, if I wasn’t too close to anyone I would start to sing with natural power. I remember being a little girl and having tears stream down my face when I would let my voice out. When I sang I would cry. It was divine. I didn’t understand why I would cry, and really I still don’t understand but it doesn’t matter why. It’s just a strange phenomenon that happened regularly and I found it embarrassing. One Wednesday morning, I was late to church and sat next to a woman who worked in administration, instead of my classmates, because I snuck in through the back. I didn’t really care if this woman heard me sing. We reached for our hymnal books as the pianist commenced. I opened my tiny, little mouth and sang because I knew the words and I felt safe from this hidden spot. After the hymn, she looked at me and said, “Well honey, don’t you have a pretty voice.” She had smiling eyes. I gently turned to look at her with hot tears rolling down my cheeks and whispered, “thank you”.  

3.     WRITE.

a.     You don’t have to be a writer. Everyone is creative. You are part of creation therefore you were created. That makes you are creative. Get up 30 minutes earlier than you normally do. Make some coffee or tea before the kids are awake, before the phone starts ringing, before you check your Instagram and email. Write from your stream of consciousness, whatever comes to mind. You don’t need to edit it. You don’t need to look back over it. You can burn the page for all I care. But it’s healthy to express and release in this way. When you write you discover things that weren’t there. You tap into a subconscious wisdom.


a.     At night when you go to sleep, imagine a blue tube of light inside a purple tube of light that connects through the atmosphere and stratosphere, into the cosmos until the other end of the tube hits Uranus. Let light come in from this planetary body. Let there be healing. It doesn’t matter if you feel like you are imagining it. Imagination is the key to divergent thinking. Divergent thinking is the key to all art and all healing. The energies of Uranus strengthen the 5th chakra.

5.     SILENCE.

a.     It’s hard to know what to express when you’re all jumbled. Watch the clarity and acuity that arises when you stop speaking and actively listen. Silence has become a luxury. Silence has become precious. Everywhere is loud. People are loud. Cities are loud. You go for a hike and there is going to be someone on that trail who is jabbering on his or her phone about something petty. You’re loud. Your mind is loud. The self-sabotaging voice is loud. So be silent. You will hear through the loudness. You will hear quiet, despite it all. You will be receptive to truth because you’ve silenced your earth self. And truth is what the 5th chakra needs.


a.     There are certain chants and sound vibrations that specifically strengthen the 5th chakra. My favorite is a Kundalini Mantra, “Sa Re Sa Sa” It means that the infinite totality is here. The creativity of God is here, everywhere. You can download this mantra, or listen to it on youtube. Find a version you love. Close your eyes. And sing this mantra with all the bigness of your heart. 11 minutes is rad. 31 minutes is boss status.



All of these will help. You can do yoga for the 5th chakra. You can see an acupuncturist. You can come see me and we can uncover truths, stories around wounds. You can be a boss like Cicero and I, wearing an amulet of blue chalcedony, pretending that you are about to give speeches to powerful politicians of the world. You can call bullshit on your made up stories. You can face pain. You can get sober. You can stop binge eating and throwing up. You can stop sleeping with people that treat you like crap and pretending its “cool”. You can start working out and get grounded into your physical body. You can chant. You can find ways to be truthful with yourself. When you do that, you can be truthful with other people. You can be brave and be honest with people, and I promise you the one’s that are worth it won’t leave you. Those who are supposed to be there, will be there. That’s how soul mates work. They are mates, for your soul. Opening in this way causes your pure essence to speak through you; the passions and purpose arise from your darkest depths soaring through to your heart and lips as the healing breath of life that it is! It will move through you, unobstructed by your oh-so-healthy, 5th chakra. And you will give this healing breath to the world. Others need it desperately. You will help them remember their own ability to heal through truth. Love is the only thing that is real. Everything else is illusion.


 I am wading through the river with you.



With all of my gently opening, glass-slipper heart,




Unconscious Commitments: 3 Ways to Overcome The Patterns That Keep You Down

Art By Tyler Spangler

Art By Tyler Spangler

Are you working really hard to get something, maybe its more money, a job you’re passionate about, the right relationship, healthy friendships, and it just doesn’t seem to be happening? Are you struggling just to maintain? Exhausted from the tried and true effort? Wondering why it has to be so hard all the time? Well, you’re not alone. You’re not cursed. And it’s not all futile. You might just need to reexamine where you are directing your energy.

You might think that you are so deeply committed to getting what you want. But I’ve found in my practice as an energy healer and intuitive counselor, and in my own experience, that people who struggle and fail to attract what they want, harbor unconscious commitments to the exact opposite of their desire. Holy shit. Yeah... that's right. Now, what exactly does that mean? What is an unconscious commitment? Let me give you an example. Have you ever had a friend who was always in debt? Every time you see them, all they talk about is work, how spread thin they are, how they are just trying to catch up, how many payments they are unable to make, despite their desire to be financially free? You feel the tension every time you're around them. You see the furrow in their brow deepening. Maybe they refuse to get a renter for their home, or temporarily move in with a family member, get a second job. And it’s as if they’ve become aligned with the problem and are beginning to identify with the form of the problem.

The problem itself, becomes who they are.

 You see, by constantly talking about the struggle of the situation, you are unconsciously giving more energy to it. There is great power in thought, and great power in the word. And this negative conversation with others or yourself, becomes a self-sabotaging spell, binding you to a vibrational state of poverty consciousness and ultimately, debt. This friend vibrates "debt" all over her energy field, in her heart, and in her lifestyle. Or perhaps maybe you or someone you know continues to attract partners who refuse to commit. This person is always in some sort of dramatic entanglement with a person who is unable to give and receive love with emotional maturity. They begin to complain that the world is changing. All the good one’s are gone. The age of relationship is over. Men are dogs. Women can’t be trusted. The world is a sad state of affairs. The justifying mantras go on and on and on. What I’ve found is that people who complain about attracting the wrong partners are unconsciously committed to being single. They’ve begun to identify with the vibration of isolation, and own it. Now, usually this is a deep and subconscious fear of intimacy being suppressed within themselves. This fear is then projected outwardly in the real world through the appearance of unhealthy lovers, to trigger the emotional pain within, until acknowledgment and awareness transmutes the deep core belief rooted in fear. Maybe you are constantly being taken advantage of in business. Over and over, you work with the wrong partners or bosses who demean you. People continue to steal from you and do not pay you back. You may be committed to victim consciousness because it gives you a false sense of power, and you are afraid of your real power. It’s easier to complain and blame the perpetrator. Then you attract friends who are also victims. You all have coffee on Tuesdays and complain together, empowering the victimhood. Sometimes it becomes easier to stay down by letting someone else, or something else, be the bad guy. It's an easy way to not take responsibility for your life. And you might not even realize what is happening. 

Are you starting to see what I am talking about here? Energy is everything. Whatever energy you are enmeshed in, is what you will vibrate and ultimately project. Be aware of what you think, say, believe, feel, and act upon.

If you see a pattern of attracting what you do not want and it is repeated more than 3 times, you can be sure you have an unconscious commitment to whatever is actually happening in your life.

 The reason it is so frustrating, is because it is happening subconsciously, right under your nose. Luckily, there is a way to turn the whole situation around.

1.     LOOK AT YOURSELF: Identify The Pattern. The first step is self-awareness. People are often so busy, fast, and so furiously in go mode that they do not stop and slow down enough to take a look at the real issue. Look at the patterns in your life. Everything that is happening is an expression of a vibrational pattern. And you have the power to choose which patterns create your story.

2.     GET REAL WITH YOURSELF: Identify The Underlying Fear. Now that you see the pattern, its time to get down and dirty with the truth. It’s true what they say, the truth shall set you free. What is it really that you are committed to? What is safe about this commitment? Are you afraid of power? Intimacy? Freedom? Is there a sub-personality created by the ego trying to protect you by holding you in darkness. Look at the deep-rooted fear. Why is it safer to engage with partners who refuse to get close? Why do you allow others to take advantage of you? Go through the emotional process.

3.     BRING LIGHT TO YOURSELF: Awareness Sheds Light. Working with a healer, a counselor, coach, or your higher self can help you transform the situation. Oftentimes just the simple awareness of what you are doing can help you identify those patterns and learn to stop yourself from repeating them in future behavior. Write opposing affirmations until you believe the empowering belief, versus the disempowering underlying fear. Get with me on the Crystal Bed to get help identifying the issue, reprograming your physiology on a cellular level, and working with all parts of your being from the DNA, to the spirit and everything in between.

From this day on, pretend you are a Wizard, and every word you speak, thought you think, action you take is a divine enchantment. Because the truth is; you are, and it is. 

Now, maybe you are self aware, you know what your fears are, but you just can’t seem to stop repeating the pattern even though you really and truly want to. That is usually when we need some help with energetic recalibration. Perhaps you have a massive energy block or vibrational wound keeping you stuck in a looping pattern. It is important to get regular energetic clearings. You can always find me at www.kalisaaugustine.com. I am here to help. We wash our bodies and hair everyday and yet don’t think about making sure our auric fields are clean. And the state of your energy field directly indicates how you are vibrating! Your vibration is the foundation of what you manifest! Sometimes we need a little bit of help identifying these issues and paving a clear path towards the life we want to create.  

As always, I send you love, blessings and light. It is my wish that this information serves you well. My hope is that you not only learn to access your innate genius, but to own it. May your genius serve this world. 


Sat Nam,




Do you ever feel like you’ve lost touch with your wild nature, vitality, or life force? In the modern world, it is easy to become disconnected from the very elements that make us feel powerful and truly free. We have lost our wild ways. There is no need to ever leave your home. People shop from laptops, connect to friends in their internet worlds, have meals delivered from their smart phones and scarf food without reverence or presence, quickly, while watching TV. We stay inside to avoid the chaos of the streets because the natural beauty gifted us by God, has been replaced by the madness of our modern world. And so we hide. Forests and wild places are diminishing and we are becoming as domesticated and subdued as our animal friends. There is a great call to honor our true nature, the earth and the animal kingdom. And spirit animals, ancient guides traditionally revered by native peoples, are stepping forth to introduce themselves to the modern world. It is time to remember the wild within you.

But what are spirit animals?

They are guides and protectors from the spirit world that help you tap into powerful parts of your unique nature, unlock aspects of your being that you're currently ignoring, traverse difficult life situations, bridge the gap to your wild nature, offer protection, warnings, and a deep comforting bond. These beings connect you to both earth, and spirit. Traditionally when one lost their vitality, drive, and connection to life, it was the village shaman who reunited the tribe member with their animal guide. Now, power animals take the spirit animal idea, one step further. Some individuals have had a natural attraction to a specific animal, since early childhood. There is an intensely strong bond to this animal. You may feel a synchronicity with this being, as if this animal lives within and through your spirit. Their sole purpose is empowerment. This is more than a guide. This animal is a part of you for life.

There are 4 types of spirit animals: LIFE, MESSENGER, SHADOW AND JOURNEY.

Life spirit animals come in when the time is right, and you are ready to hear their wisdom. This animal remains with you as an overseer, for an entire lifespan guiding and directing you, remaining present while other guides make short term appearances during specific life lessons. Messengers, on the other hand, come in with important warnings and messages. They come urgently and usually stick around no longer than 2-3 months. As soon as you receive the message consciously or on a soul level, they are gone. Their purpose is done. The third type of animal is the shadow spirit guide. These are the most interesting and dynamic of all the guides. At first, these guides appear as predators. There may be an initial fear associated with them upon first meeting. However, they are not dark. Their role is to bring awareness to a part of your nature you are suppressing. They give light to what you suppress, urging you to see what lies beneath. Shadow spirit guides challenge you. If you rise to their challenge the bond is everlasting and uniquely beautiful. Finally, we have the journey spirit guides. These beings come in for a specific chapter of your life, for a season perhaps. There is no set time limit with the journey group. They oversee certain challenges and transitions, however long they may last.

How do I find a connection to my spirit animal?

1. Set the intention to connect with your spirit animal.

2. Listen. Do not chase. Just as with life, work, and even dating. Be confident and let your guide come to you. Have faith. You do not get to choose your spirit animal. They choose you. Have respect for the process and the guides by deepening your ability to listen. Start meditating regularly. Slow down. Moving too fast, acting without grace, and consistent attempts at controlling your environment, communicates that you do not need guides or help. If you want a teacher, be a good student. Students are quiet and respectful in class. They listen. Would a teacher want to instruct a student who cannot sit down, be still and quiet, or pay attention to the lesson? No. It would be an inefficient waste of time. Have the discipline to meditate. Meditation is how you open yourself to higher realities. If you don't know how to meditate, start to research! There are many available sources these days. Find a class, teacher, app, download mantras etc.

3. Observe. There are signs all around us. You’ll begin to see signs in dreams, in the physical world, and everyday life. Start studying animals and observe which one’s you're drawn to. Are there any animals that pop up consistently for you? Start a dream journal and take note each morning if any animal guides appear. Be patient and open. Eventually your spirit animal will make itself clear to you.

4. Tools to connect: shamanic drumming in meditation, relaxing music, guided visualizations. 

Okay, so I’ve found my spirit animal. Now what?

1. Learn as much as you can about your animal. Imagine it. Feel it. Watch documentaries on it. Are there any interesting secret traits or habits?

2. Make a list of all attributes you associate with your animal. Do this without thinking too much. Allow for instinct to kick in, post research.

3. Now, take your list and look at these traits in comparison to your own thoughts, feelings and habits. What resonates? What do you have resistance to? Both are important for learning. You are likely suppressing any attributes to which you have resistance.

3. If you could talk to your animal? What would you say? What would it say?

4. Meditate with the intention to connect to your guide. As you start to relax, speak to this animal, and then listen to the divine communication.

How do I deepen my connection to my animal guide?

1. Make art associated with your animal.

2. Decorate your altar with totem symbols.

3. Wear animal jewelry.

4. Work with animal rights campaigns, eat organic, hormone and cruelty free meats if you eat meat. Pray over your food with reverence honoring the spirit of the being who nourishes you.

5. Spend more time in nature. Go for a hike, find a quiet spot to sit and connect with your guide.

6. Live in a way that shows compassion towards the animal and plant kingdoms, and mother earth.

Remember, always display eternal gratitude for these glorious beings. The more reverence and respect given, the more medicine, visions and communication you will experience from these master guides. Good luck! And remember to heed the call of the wild. The wild within you is your freedom, your true nature, and your birthright. Blessings.